Molehills.

Cannot stand those who gossip and make mountains outta molehills. I did not and I repeat did not do any shit with him just because I simply hugged him good-bye when he left. God damn, Asian adults are so conservative. In American 21st century, it is normal to hug the opposite sex! And when I say we're simply friends, we're fucken simply friends god damn so shut your faces already. Stop your bitching and threats. I know I'm not ready for anything serious and I'm not able to devote myself wholly to a person again. I honestly could care less how many people walk out of my life because they chose to.Those who matter wouldn't second guess me. I'd rather be alone but true to myself than surrounded by creatures who are provincial and untrue - lying to others and myself.

My hair is a rebel nowadays, the curliest I can get my hair. o( Y ^ Y )o

Mommy's Day

Happy mommy day to all the grandmothers, mothers, and future mothers! My own mother doesn't appreciate the shit I try and the fact that I would've had my darling in my arms late May or early June.

I had the weirdest dream last night. I dreamt that I was in this really murky swamp with purple and yellow lotuses. I don't know why but the whole dream revolved around Corey but I didn't see him at all in it? I kept bawling, throwing myself around. and I ran away from home? Somehow I ended up in traffic and got injured to the point that I had to get plastic surgery on my face. My face looked like a normal girl's but I hated it because it wasn't mine. I dunno, as a child I always hated how I looked but I've grown to love my appearance. Then my uncle found me and we ended up in Arby's and he kept trying to calm me down and ask what was up? I ended up spilling everything to him and after my surgery he took back to Vietnam and I was on a bus LOL. So odd? Not sure what the heck was going on in my head. 

Anyways, went to the temple last night and a bunch of cops came in with their flash lights and batons, guess someone was being naughty in the back? Talk to Tommy for a bit and did my own thing. I noticed that he came and sat close to me towards the middle of the night? Not sure if he did that on purpose or if that was the only seat available hehe. I thought he didn't notice and it was mere coincidence so I didn't say anything but after I got home he video called me for a bit and it turns out he did see me sitting there but then he couldn't find me after that because I had ran off. I dunno, he was with another girl so I didn't pay any heed, didn't want to get in between things. 

Meh, horrid weekend but hey HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO MEEE. I still love my darling and they're still in my heart forever and always.

My little bundle of joy.

Unknown reader,

The one who's been visiting every hour.
Who are you? Is it who I think it is?
I'm pleased to know someone is interested in what goes on in my mind and heart.
You don't have to reveal yourself, I'm happy enough to see footsteps of your presence.

BTW; happy news. NO MORE BLOODY SAGA. :DD

Mmm.

Been so tired lately. Catching up on my assignments and been cramming a bit. Tomorrow's the AP testing at the IRC for English. FU. So glad I'm taking CP next year. Not sure what's up with my appearance lately, been looking shitty as fuck.

Good-bye once again?

I've never been good at good-byes. I've already lost two people, I can't lose another one not again. Bobby's departure was hard enough without saying good-bye but I can't lose her. It feels all so unreal.

Relations.

There's a dogma of giving everyone a chance but if you dated everyone who liked you, wouldn't you be a slut?

If people choose to walk away, I won't bother to stop them. If you want to stay then you have to make an effort, because I can't do it all by myself. I have this thing about me, if you're friends or associate with someone I'm not on good terms with then I automatically start distancing myself. I don't know, I just don't like having a connection with people I dislike, even if I'm good friends with the other person. The connection is just a total repellent for me and I begin to distance myself from both parties and gain a dislike for both no matter who it may be. Yeah, yeah it's a horrible trait that'll cause me to be friendless but why should I change for society? I'm being the bigger person by leaving both sides alone am I not? I'm not causing a scene, I am not trash talking. I am merely separating myself because I do not want to have to do anything with them. Sure, I may be an immature bitch with the way I act because I shouldn't have people choose but wait a fucken moment. Did I ever confront em about their friendship? Nope, I am the one walking away. I am the one making it easier for both of them. It's also one of the reasons why I want to move far away so that I won't have to deal with unwanted connections. There will always be people I dislike but hey it's my choice if I want to live in a hermit shell too so stfu.

Because sometimes it's easier to walk away and cry in a corner than deal with lies and conflicting relationships.