Had an odd dream last night. I had given birth to a son and he was so beautiful and intelligent. Fast forward to when babies can crawl and move around. which is like 6 months-ish? Ah, he had lots of hair, bright starry eyes, big round cheeks that seemed too heavy for him to support, and a smile to die for! This was set back in the dynasty times too, not sure why but meh, it was a nice dream nevertheless. He sure loved to laugh and be held too. I was living alone in this small, wooden, cabin isolated from others. It was a cold night with lots of stars, maybe winter time? Not sure but I was wrapping him up in a white fur blanket, getting ready to rock him to sleep when suddenly all these foot soldiers busted through the doors with spears in their hands. They said something about him being the last taizi(太子/Crown Prince) of whatever dynasty/empire and ordered me to hand him over so they could kill him. I was bawling my eyes and resisted, throwing my body over him to protect him. It was so heart retching. I woke up before anything happened to him. Not sure why I had that dream, it was so nice too until the end. Thinking about that part just brings me to tears. This makes me wonder, the previous dreams I've had my child was a girl but now she's a boy? Maybe my next one will be a boy or maybe I'll just never know the sex of my child.
It was so cold this morning, so did not want to get outta bed. Put on this uber cute outfit that was pretty warm until 4th period. Gah, the classroom was so hot. Got many compliments on it teehee. Got lost trying to find the teacher's lounge today when getting Mrs. Perkins a diet coke. So scared about the compass test. Eeek! But hey, with JF over there's less stress and when I take the test all my major stress factors shall disappear. Yaaaaaay! Forgot to mention, Saw Jawuan on Saturday. He didn't recognize me for a moment, guess I've changed that much aye? Asked where Ami was but sadly she couldn't go since she had work that day. Had plans for today but something came up and I didn't want to cause her trouble especially since she's doing me a huge favor. I'm fine with steering clear, it helps me avoid unnecessary emotional conflicts and tension. Okay so there's more rumors spreading about me dating guys. What's up with this? First it was me dating Dion, now I'm dating some unknown guy that I don't even know what he looks like or name! The heo do people come up with these things? Maybe I just have too many friends or seem too friendly ahaha. I told Mikeo about my dream and he said that I should turn it into a story..? Why? I mean yes my dreams are odd but turn em into stories? He says that they're awesome story ideas..? I mean I guess I could write stories about my other dreams if I ever wanted to but I don't think I could write about this dream. He's wanting to turn my dream into a movie, similar to Dragonball Z and have my son bring me back to life by collecting the dragon balls. Wtf, oh my. Guys and their ideas amaze me. Maybe one day I'll write an alternative ending to my life and what could have happened, especially since he/she would be about 4-5 months right about now. My precious darling. I would've had to go through a lot of sleepless nights and probably dropping out but I would have my darling in my arms, hear their giggles and smiles. Pretty sure things would be kept quiet with the otherside but then it would probably slip out. I have a feeling they would gush over him like no other later on though because he was just simply beautiful. Wonder if he/she would have really looked more like mommy or daddy? Sigh, my mind is wondering off at the possibilities again.
Say good-bye to something in this photo. It won't be there soon. ;)
Có lẽ ông trời đang đọa đầy thân anh
Maybe God is testing me(?)
Đã mấy đêm rồi anh chẳng thể yên giấc
These past few days I haven't had a good rest
Vì con tim anh bị đau
Because my heart has been aching
Vì con tim anh cứ kêu gào
Because my heart keeps screaming out
Nó nói nhớ em vô cùng.
That it misses you way too much
Ani cứ hỏi lòng biết phải làm sao đây
I ask myself what to do now
Muốn nói yêu em nhưng mà anh không dám
I want to tell you I love you but I don't dare to
Nhìn em hồn nhiên dễ thương
Your soul so adoreable and fragile
Làm cho tim anh vấn vương
Making my heart go into overdrive
Anh quyết phải nói với em.
I've decided to tell you
[ĐK:]
Rằng anh có thể hy sinh chết vì em
That I'm willing to die because of you
Dù đau đớn nhưng anh vẫn không ngại ngần
Even though it'll hurt I won't hesitate
Chỉ mong em luôn cười tươi
Just want you to smile
Cuộc sống em được vui là anh hạnh phúc lắm rồi.
Just as long as you're happy
Đừng nghĩ anh chỉ ba hoa mà thôi
Don't think I'm only words
Welcome to Yeucahat.comLời anh nói sẽ không bao giờ thay đổi
My words will never change
Hãy tin tình yêu của anh và em sẽ đi cùng anh
Just believe my love and come with me
Anh dám nói cả thế giới này không ai yêu em bằng anh.
I can tell that no one in this world loves you as much as me
