I hate feeling like this. I really do. It's not like I do it on purpose but I hate when shit like this happens. It's a sense of betrayal and nobody understands. Me being the person I am, I don't confront, yell or scream. Instead, I stay quiet. Quiet until I can't stand it anymore that I run away to solitude.. then I cry. I cry and cry because I can't express the pain I feel. Because I'm seen as the bad person every time and never sympathized with. Eventually, they will get tired of this trait of mine and leave. I can feel it, and because its happened before.
Sometimes I want to move away and start life all over again. Date someone who knows no one else besides me, who came out of a rock.
