A friend - defined.

Everybody wants to be friends with someone who can carry their own weight. One that has desirable assets as smart, modest, with a well reputation. A face that's always smiling, cheerful, yet oh so cool and attractive. Takes the best photos and gives freebies. Comes up with the best quotations and gets at least twenty likes for each status.

Nobody wants to listen about hardships, it's a major turn off especially when it's serious such as having an alcoholic father. Hear them cry, provide a shoulder to lean on, nor know the reason why unless it'll provide gossip. Someone that's ugly and takes the worst photos are steered clear. Those with disabilities are pitied and often ignored with politeness unless they're fat. 

In the end, everybody wants friends that they can benefit off of without repaying anything more than words of flattery every now and then. 

Sometimes, I wish the a disease would wipe humanity to extinction. 

What a boy.

You say "I could've told you all of these things." What things are you referring to? 

If Corey doesn't indulge you than I don't know what he does. Sure, people go through hardships but yours don't seem all that complex from what I've seen and they seem to reoccur more than others. You hang out with friends every weekend if not three to four times a week on school nights til whenever you guys wanna disperse. You skip school, flunk classes, ask to borrow his car without hesitation, even to the point of calling him at two in the morning to borrow his car. You declare that you're not mad at me for talking about these things to him. Uhm, why SHOULD you be mad? Because these matters are pretty clear, everybody sees you using his things and being over at his house. All I did was bring it to his attention. You say that I don't know your life and that I shouldn't assume things because you've had a rough life, ect and that I should ask you what goes on in your life. Well for one, have you ever for ask me how my life is? You only text me when you want inside scoops on the fights Corey and I have while lying through your teeth each time that it's just between you and I; besides I'm not assuming anything, I'm merely observing. 

Daddy has a temper.

Bloody mouth along with cuts from braces in the gums and inner lips from braces after being bitched slapped around, because I didn't do what he said fast enough.

Mommy says quietly to herself that it was their fault for not teaching their kids better, that they had not paid close enough attention to their kids that now the kids are rebellious and gnarled like wild trees in the forest.

I've missed you make up bag.

Time to show bitches who's BOSS.
Don't think just because I don't wear make-up that I'm insecure or intimidated cause I'm just as assertive without it. I'll plow you over if you're in my way so don't go "excuse you" to me. I'm in a rush to get to class so either get yo skanky ass into the classroom or move over rather than taking up the tiny hallway space hoe. I don't care who the hell you are unless you're an administrator nor do I wanna waste my time and turn back to see your pizza face.

School's for education, not head.

Answers

Why are they desired?
They'll just lead to more questions, and pain. Especially when the person giving them out don't know what or why they're the way they are. Gnarled, twisted with a hint of bitter sweet causing unintentional harm.

An uneasiness.

There have been multiple matters occupying my thoughts yet I don't know where or how to start. This entry won't make sense with all the choppiness and poor grammar points but I don't know how to get things out in the open.

You know the saying when you marry into an Asian family, you're not just marrying that person. You're marrying the whole family and it doesn't help when there are people that seem like they dislike you for no reason. If you confront the member(s) and they say that they don't have a problem with you in that careless-get-lost tone then you appear as though you're trying to create tides in the family while getting humiliated.
I know I'm not getting married and my relationship isn't serious but I don't like getting treated without respect. It's better to fix issues while everything's still new rather than years later on when everything's settled in.

It's nothing big but I don't like having to be polite and greets others while they ignore me, especially if they're around my age or younger. Politeness and manners is a big one for my morals.

I know this entry is butchered and there's poor grammar but I don't know how to rephrase things.