Had an odd dream last night. I was dating this guy for some reason? My god, I acted like a little girl who's never had a boyfriend before. So happy and innocent, wtf? I can't afford a boyfriend right now nor do I desire one haha. Odd because we aren't even close friends, just acquaintances plus he's closer to a friend of mine and I think he secretly likes her. They'd make a cute couple haha, we'd just look awkward as hell. Having a nice drink at the moment, hopefully it won't exhaust me too much and disable me to wake up in time for tomorrow morning. I feel really warm and woozy, maybe I should stop. Awkward thing happened last night and I'm not sure why, left me a bit puzzled but it's not important because I have priorities. I'm growing, learning, and experiencing as each day passes. I've grown accustomed to the situation of being alone. I will cry, I will smile, I will live alone as I planned in the beginning. I will eventually forget, and emotions will erode and fade away just as what was desired. Happy smiles for the audience though! Heard the awkwardest conversation today when I had to stay back for ceramics, needed to throw some more pieces since today was the last day for wet clay, bleh. Had work today as well but it wasn't busy. Taking a day off of work nowadays to focus on education. So, I am failing. I have a 50.5% as of now, fuck that shit. So piss and exhausted. So much make-up homework and assignments. Just wanna throw in the towel but I can't. Shit, I'm starting to get a headache. Better go shower and hit the hay before I collapse since I'm still in my work clothes. I should stop drinking this, it'll erode away my braces and I don't wanna wake-up with a migraine for the interview lololol. Why did he even bother? It may be out of pity, it may be out of sincerity because of the past, or out of his own frustration of his current state. I don't know. It's whatever. To keep thinking about it will only make things worse and drag out the process. Had a couple of guy friends actually worry about me and kept hitting me up last night, making sure that I was okay and I wouldn't do anything stupid. How cute. School was hell, nobody showed up because of the bomb threat - ghetto as fuck and happens every few years.
