我仍然希望一个更加美好的明天。

I was so tired today on the first day returning to school. English was relatively easy and the homework load was lighter than usual. Found out that Zack is in my second hour. I was like woah, what a coincidence! I finally, and I mean finally was able to get out of AAT and apparently I can't take summer school for AAT? Who knew but it feels as though so much weight has been lifted from my shoulders! I really wanted to share the news with him but I don't think he would've cared. I was so proud that I was able to finally transfer after so many meetings and conferences and I wanted to share my joy with him but he probably wouldn't have reacted with much emotion. Now, I'm trying to contemplate if I should take CP or AP English next year because if I do I'll have 3 AP core classes but I'll have 2 other honors/ap electives + Japanese 4 and if I do well in ALG 2 then I'll get bumped to College Alg next year if not ALG3/TRIG. Damn. Trying to decide between learning the guitar, piano, or pick up my violin since 2 years ago. I mean I have two violins already in the basement but I'm working hard to obtain my ideal body. Eating healthy and cutting back on my soft drink intake. Instead of drinking gatorade and fruit punch, I've been drinking raspberry flavored water and eating more but I'm also exercising more. DDR nonstop for 3 hours each night but I'm slacking on my sleep intake. I'm around ~49kg-52kg at the height of  160 cm. I'm aiming for Seohyun's. Her body ratio is 3.44cm/kg while mine is 3.08cm/kg so I don't understand why they're considered underweight while I'm considered average? My body most closely resembles Tiffany's and she is the healthiest out of all the girls but I would like to have a toner stomach as well as legs. I want SNSD legs! Even if I'm the same weight. I'm working less now. Focusing on my life and education. Money can wait, love can subside because I need to find myself in life.  Even if I were to obtain love again, I would prefer to avoid it as much as possible. I would prefer a slower love, one less serious. An innocent and church like love - one that isn't too invested so I won't get too comfortable and get hurt.

Tiffany: 51kg - 164cm
Taeyeon: 45kg - 164cm
Jessica: 46kg - 164cm
Sunny: 44kg - 160cm
Hyoyeon: 49kg - 164cm
Yuri: 46kg - 169cm
Sooyoung: 49kg - 171cm
Yoona: 48kg - 168cm
Seohyun: 49kg - 169cm