Stayed home to babysit siblings. I had to wake up early and get bitched at. Boo! I guess I need to head to bed earlier from now on since school is starting soon. Still have 4 textbook chapters to complete and packets! Not to mention English's packet as well. Damn. Still gotta order my online book as well. &&Gotta fill out the paper works for Japan. Bleck! I'm slackin'. I think I hurt Andy's feelings by ignoring him. I didn't mean to, I just don't want to get close or involved with emotions. I just wanna be friends. Yes, I'm friend-zoning EVERYONE but hey at least I'm not dissing the "nice guys" for a bad boy but honestly, I can not stand bad boys. They get on my nerves. &&to the nice boys - they've gotta stop complaining about their effort because hey, she didn't like you. Get over it. Don't toil over your "wasted efforts" because if you really were a nice guy - you wouldn't be trying to guilt trip her or try to find pity for yourself. Nobody hears nice girls complainin', sheesh. Don't wanna be any boy's girl - I'm my own. You can holla at me from the left or right, I guarantee I'll holler a better response. Headin' off to work around 4:00pm and I'm closin' tonight. I've started to eat at work on a regular base, bad bad! I'mma start gaining weight ahaha. Gotta discipline myself! Gotta resist the yummy fatness lolol. I don't wanna turn fat and ugly. Oh what a lonely night. Hopefully I can squeeze in a chapter before hitting the hay hence I'm updating early. Today was suppose to be special but I can't remember why. What am I forgetting? I know it's suppose to be really important but I can't figure it out! It's frustrating me. I have a few questions that pop into my head from time to time but they're not important. You've return from Arkansas, correct? I'm sure it was a blast, especially New Year's Eve. It's been 2 weeks since we've last seen each other's faces. 6 days since we've last communicated yet it feels as though it's been a life time, as though we've forgotten each other. Maybe you've forgotten already, I'll forget soon enough. There's nothing left of the warm, cozy hearth we once inhabited. The love that once surrounded it is gone. It's dark, cold, and abandoned. It's left in ruins and all that's left are memories. Because I don't care anymore. Happy - go - lucky is my motto! Singing my heart out, laughing until I cry, life is life. Just trying to make the best of it and everybody should too!
