Happy go lucky.

Worked as usual. Somewhat disappointed that I can't go to Megan's party tomorrow since I took Michelle's shift - boo! Had an odd dream again. Apparently I skipped school and went to the mall by myself? Which was next to the airport? But it had Japanese snacks and such! I ran into him and his cousin at the mall with a couple of friends - awk so I walking away to avoid them but his cousin kept following me? Wtf. Then somehow I ended up at a quarantine area? It was shaddy as hell with wire fences. This really old my den dude tried raping me when I was trying to escape? I dunno but I was twisting his skin and clawing at him but it didn't effect anything. I was lost as fuck trying to get to my car which was parked near the airport next to the mall? Odd dream. Why can't I have normal guy friends without them trying to be something more than that? I'm cursed haha. Hung out with Megan for a while after work - we had no clue what to do haha. I drove her home and it turns out she lives on the usual routine I take after work to get to his house. Awkward and a bit nostalgic - questions popped up but I pushed them away. Drove home jammin' to the radio. My friend's situation is pissing me off. What kind of baby daddy deliberately stresses out the baby mama? IT'S NOT GOOD FOR THE BABY. It can cause a miscarriage and birth defects - something I wouldn't be surprised if mine had because I was under so much stress and losing so much nutrients. I don't know how he can say that he loves her and the baby and the next second telling her to kill herself and the baby. Wtf. I guess I was in a better situation because mine didn't even wanna be involved so it's whatever. Can't wait to spoil my little niece/nephew and give her a baby shower! If he doesn't pick up the slack - I'll be there for her. I'll be the kid's daddy if I must. I regret my decision so I'm gonna spoil her kid rotten because she's my boo thang.