Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Selfishness.

Had a dream about Kimchi girl. So awkward. Did odd things together and I dreamt that I snuck around with this guy and did stuff with him. Omfg, it felt great. I don't know why there's so much sensation in a dream or why I'm having these dreams but omg, it felt so great. Woke up around 11AM but fell back asleep and ended up waking up around 2:00PM. Hehe, wonder why I slept so much when I had went to bed around 1:00AM which wasn't too late. Got my blonde parts lighten and Jenn got her hair ombre'd. Went shoppin' for a bit and came home, ate, and now it's time to go to bed.

Did some pondering and one thing I've come up with is, no parent wants their child to suffer but is willing to have other people's children suffer because of their kid. A mother wants to have a daughter-in-law who can bear emotional and mental burdens, is hard working, and has manners because she doesn't want her son to suffer or go hungry. She wants someone who her son can lean on and depend upon. With girls, a mother wants a wealthy, smart, man who is financially supportive and broad so their daughter can lean on him. The person's daughter or son could be slow, lazy, or have a really horrid temper but it's okay because it's their child. They only think of how their child could benefit from other people's children. Do they stop to think of what their child could bring to someone else's child? No. Because they'd rather have someone else's child suffer than their own flesh and blood. Someone's child could be abusive, an alcoholic, or a gambler; they don't care but god be damn if their son in law or daughter in law be less than perfect and submissive! Honestly tired of this shit. I know what I bring to the table so keep your tongue in and your mouth closed and think of what you can bring to the table. I will not settle for less than what I deserve and will not be captured or easily swoon by others who desire what I possess. I have the beauty, the brains, and the motivation. I may not have the resources but I have the motivation to learn and earn. Flattery and promises fall upon deaf ears. I have heard them time over time and I've become immune. Until one day, I meet someone will the brains, looks, and financial stability with a family who will welcome me with open arms and consider me as one of them, I'll stick to being alone and desired by everyone.

So, apparently I look like Apink's Eun Ji without my glasses?  I think the prettiest member is Na Eun and I would strive more to look like her. Here's a photo of the two members together though here. Although I'm satisfied with my appearance and the resemblance with Eun Ji. ^^

Could you tell my blonde parts are platinum instead of honey now?