Fuuuhhhh. I agreed to a date, without knowing it was a date. Wth. I hate it when people call it a date. Absolutely hate it, especially if it was a hang out in the beginning. Please, for the love of gawd do not call it a date - especially if we're only friends and nothing else! Heck, even when we're close friends I still don't like calling things a date because when I think of a date I think of having to dress up all nice, be all modest and polite and do lovey dovey things. Bleck! I just want to hang out like buddies, burp, crack jokes, and scratch my ass crack like any other homie. Yeeeah, I'm not very lady like. I should be like repelling dudes, not having them call me up outta nowhere and trick me into a date without knowing. Maybe he'll forget? Ehhh, time will tell. Maybe we can be chill, watch the movie and eat like homies. Crack a couple of jokes and pick up girls? Yeah, I'm lame.
Got a few tips from a female friend and it helped. Dating when I'm not completely over my ex isn't fair to the next guy but sometimes dating can be okay too - just don't take it all too serious and think he'll be the one I marry. I mean, I'm pretty much over him. I don't see or hope of getting back together. When someone mentions his name I don't get all worked up, I just don't wanna see or hear about him because it's better off that way. As long as he's not dead then that's all that matters for me. I mean, he was my first love so I figure there's gonna be a part of me that'll always care for him but how do I know when I'm completely, totally over him? Yeah, dating will help but I don't want the next dude to feel like he's in my ex's shadow because nobody deserves that.