Slow, snowy day.

Ugh. I definitely need more sleep. Had to scrape my car this morning, it's really scary to drive with foggy or unclear glass. Pumped my tires for the first time as well! Yeeee! I'm so happy that I did a good job and didn't blow em off haha. Had to pump em to see how full they were since I didn't have a tire gauge. Today was pretty much a pattern of uber slow for hours then 15 minute rushes then dead then rush again. Had a total of three carhops throughout the day which is total off because we tend to have at least four if not eight. Tips were good. I've realized that I hardly get tipped by girls but most of my male customers tip me, and they tip me well too. Oh wow haha. Been wearing a beanie during work instead of my visor since it's so cold and Tim doesn't mind. Cobe brought me sushi today. Yaaaaaaay. Except I think he misheard me when I said anything without cream cheese as anything with cream cheese. But I'm still happy and thankful that he brought me sushi. Yeeeee! Tried to do blogilate workouts last night and they were just not meant for me at all. I hated em. Did Tiffany Rothe's and it was pleasant. Did it for 15 minutes and called it a night. Gonna do the same tonight as well since tomorrow's suppose to be icy so early morning it seems. G'night.

It's time for a trim, length and bangs wise. 

3 Layers.

The other night I had a dream that I was taking care of Andi and Alex by myself. We lived in a decent apartment and they still went to the same school. I had volunteered as a parent helper or whatever for an event and during it all, Andi's teacher pulled her aside for some help. Later on Andi came back with this rescued pup, mostly white with maybe a few cream spots. It was about one to two weeks, too young to be weaned off its mother. I couldn't give back the pup plus it was so helpless so I shrugged it off and cared for it as well. It started to grow, and put on some weight. Made me pretty happy since it didn't look too good before. After some time it turned into a baby, about 4 months. Then she turned into a boy, for a really short about of time, 5 months I believe? Then he turned back into a girl at 7 months or so I believe. I was genuinely happy about her/him. Seeing her crawl around and laugh really made my heart melt, even though I had to sit on the ground and watch after her to make sure she didn't injure herself against corners. I randomly got a snapchat of the background of the environment he was in, out of nowhere too. I think it was one of his warbrobe and desk? I just shrugged it off and sent him one of my little girl and me. I didn't feel anything really, I just wanted to show him my beautiful baby girl and how happy I was to have her. Odd huh?
Then last night I had a dream that I went bike riding with this other person, for some apparent reason? I went through this ghetto neighborhood and ended up walking into this wooden house, not a typical american one. Seemed more like those ones you find in Asia. There were people, but nobody I knew. I had a stray, abused dog with me as well. I had rescued it and made it mine. It was a boy, dark grey, and speckled with floppy ears. It was a big dog. It seemed to be part terrier, but had the shape of a German Shepard but shorter hair. We went past this huge, dog that seemed to be anticipating on whether to attack or not. It was chained to a post near the doorway but it seemed to be in position to lunge so the other person, I, and the dog left - even though the sun was setting quickly over the horizon.
Not sure why all the dreams I have concerning babies are always mine in some way or another, I just have a sense of possession and maternal connection even if it doesn't start off that way. They always end up being females as well, wonder if that's a sign? Which is really odd because I had a gut feeling that she was going to be a he. Eh, I'll never know but know after so many reoccurring dreams I think the baby was a girl. Definitely. She never expresses traits that stuck out as being of him. I did see some that are different from mine but I generally see a beautiful, healthy, girl and I could see myself in her as well. Now, the baby girl that was a dog - she didn't have much traits from me and I knew that she wasn't her, but she was still my daughter - biological or adopted and I was just so happy to have her in my life. Blessing in disguise.
Ate at least 4 times today at work. First was popcorn chicken, cinnasnacks, then a cheeseburger. Had soup before I left too since Tim told me to come in an hour later. Spent a total of $10 with my discount, eating away. I think I may be starting my period soon, ah shit. Got a new regulation where you have to print out everything and write a reason for questionable transaction, even late tickets. It took me a good 40 minutes to do all of them and that's without getting paid! Wtf. Unfair to the maximum. Headed over to get some more gloves at Wal-Mart except they didn't have the ones I want - wth? They always do! Shopped for some knee high socks as well. Tried looking for thigh high ones except there weren't many which disappointed me. Btw, I didn't want these - I wanted these. I wanted the material to be thick as well - not thin and see through like tights. Meg went with me and she proclaimed that I have a shopping problem because I kept looking around and getting drawn into it. Had to cover my eyes and push me forward heh. I think one of the reasons for my impulsive buying is that I never got the things other kids did as a child, I was always self conscious of the position my family was in and there was a fear but also a desire. In a way, I think it came out at peak when after my last break up. Shopping and self evaluating myself, dressing up and being surrounded by pretty things. It gave me back my confidence and esteem to strive on, that I'm worthy. Plus, I've seriously gotten so girly compared to back then. I worry about smelling good, having moisturized skin and lips, about my hair's health, and body mass. It's so odd. I use to just throw on my favorite grey t-shirt, jeans, and get on the road. Heh, must be the estrogen. Anyways, bundle up today. Wore tights, leggings, and then my black pants. For the top I wore my red sweater, uniform shirt, and then a fuzzy uniform jacket. Wore fingerless gloves to be able to count my money(tried to buy more of those at Wal-Mart but couldn't find any), wore my white and black kitten beanie. I was pretty bundled up and layered but my fingers and toes were always cold. Maybe I could try layering on socks?

Getting home after a 10 hour shift. 

OPI Qs.

天気は＿＿＿ですね。
冬休み、何をするつまりですか。
どこ何か行くつまりですか。
だれと行く？
どんな食べ物を食べるのだろうか。
先生は何食べ物を料理する？
アイススケートをやる？
クリスマスにエッグノグを飲む？
冬が何一番がすきですか。

Filing applications.

Filling out my financial aid information, gotta get back in the mode of filling out those scholarships and writing em essays. Hopefully with my late start, I can use those two extra hours to write em! Went on a shopping spree, and hopefully this one will be my last until spring break. Fingers crossed! Killed all four big bowls I had threw on Wednesday, they just didn't satisfy my criteria. Since I'm not able to bike those daily 30 miles, I've been resorting to just 15 minutes of lifting to work on my arms rather than legs. Maybe I'll get into pilates later on? Tonight's just been a day of concentrating on my academic process.

Another CD for those who may be puzzled at my decision not to purchase anything from the market yet.

Quick sketch for nengajou.

Plog.

My first "big bowl" that I did in 15 minutes.

Only C (boy bánh bèo) Karik (boy nhà nghèo) 

[Ver1:]
Anh này, đẹp trai này, đại gia này nhà giàu tiền tiêu thả ga 

This boy, handsome, rich and wealthy
Xây riêng hồ bơi để nuôi cá 

Built a private pool to fish(figurative language)
Anh thì nghèo khó, tiền chẳng có, nhà nghèo vì mẹ đâu có cho

I'm poor, I don't have money, a poor background because I wasn't given everything by my mother
Xây riêng công viên để nuôi chó 

Built a park to take of dogs

Anh kia khi yêu em thì, mua cho những món đắt tiền 

When he loves you, he buys expensive things for you
Luôn luôn tặng em rồi sai khiến (khiến em luôn đau đầu)

Gives you then expects favors in return.
Anh đây khi yêu em là, trao cho em con tim chung tình 

When I love, I give you my true heart.
Em ơi hãy lắng nghe anh này! 

Please listen to me baby

[Hook:]
Yêu anh đi em...anh không đòi quà 

Love me honey, I don't want much
Chia tay...anh không đòi lại quà 

Breaking up, I don't expect much
Anh yêu...anh không đòi quà 

When I love, I don't expect much
Yêu em...anh không đòi lại quà.

Loving you, I don't ask much

[Ver2:]
Thằng kia...ra đường là đại gia 

When he goes out, he's wealthy
Về nhà...sung sướng làm đại ca 

When he goes home, he's the alpha
Quen em...tiền bạc xài thả ga 

Forgetting you, money is spent full on
Nhưng chia tay...lại tới nhà đòi lại quà 

But break up, he reclaims the gifts
Anh không như thế...không nhiều tiền 

I'm not like that, don't have much money

Đồ anh xài mua ở chợ Kim Biên 

I buy my things from the Kim Bien market
Nhưng cam kết nhà có xe đạp riêng 

But thankfully I have my own bike
Lỡ chia tay anh sẽ không làm phiền 

If we break up, you don't have to worry about me bugging you
Anh biết anh không được đẹp nhưng anh không vô duyên 

I know I'm not attractive but I'm not cocky
Tài chém gió anh có nhưng mà anh không thuộc dạng bị điên 

Gentleman-ness I have, insane I am not
Trừ quà cáp được tính bằng hiện kim 

Gifts are accumulated through thoughts, not materialistic matters
Còn lại anh hứa gì là anh sẽ tặng liền 

Anything else I promise I will do
Welcome to Yeucahat.com
Boy nhà nghèo là boy nhà nghèo 

I'm a poor boy 2x
Không ai thích vì chê quà bèo 

Nobody likes because I'm so poor
Boy nhà nghèo là boy nhà nghèo 

I'm a poor boy 2x
Vì boy nghèo nên không ai theo.

Because I'm poor nobody courts me

* Khi yêu nhau anh quan trọng lời nói 

When loving, I value word(someone's word/promise)
Đã nói lúc trước khi yêu ai sẽ không 2 lờidối trá 

I've said before that when I love someone I don't say two different things(lie)
(oh babe babe) 

Oh babe babe
Bao năm trôi qua và tình yêu anh trao cho em 

How many years have passed, I give my love to you
Không phôi pha em hãy lắng nghe anh mà.

It hasn't faded, listen to me honey

Basically, love me because I won't ask for the gifts back like him(because I'm not wealthy enough to buy you those things, HA HA)

#Sweaterswag.

I feel like I need to head to bed earlier, even if I'm in bed by 11PM! The kids were surprisingly still in bed, even at 7:30AM so I had to wake em up but they got dressed and everything pretty quickly. I believe they were downstairs by 7:45AM? A big improvement from when mama was here! 

Got so many events crammed into this week. Bills, events that people want me to attend, and assignments. Gah. Why can't I say no to people, sigh. I have a guilt problem.

Noticed that my face has been changing and I don't understand why? My braces are done and over with so my facial structure shouldn't be shifting and I stopped doing the fat burning masks. Wtf is going on? My face is becoming round again! I don't think I'm gaining weight, at least not to the extent that my facial form should change? Gah, it's pissing me off. My face all well until I had to try the freakin' mask. It's not because I'm lacking in water either because it happened before I stopped drinking bottles of water. I still drink water, just not as much. I'll probably start working out more as well as increase my water intake. Don't want to have a round face again, it doesn't suit me.

Right in the feels.

Marriage would be so cute if it went like this.

Wearing the necklace he got me as well. Better be happy because it keeps pulling out my hair which will contribute to my baldness. :)