Overall break.

Overall, I think my break was alright. I was pretty distressed in the beginning and lost all my bubbliness but I think I've recovered a bit. I panic at the smallest things on the road now, especially when my view isn't clear or approaching cars. It just sends me into a panic and I hate it. I drive slower than a grandma and I don't mind, as long as I'm safe and nothing happens then it's okay. Being a few minutes late or whatever is fine because at least I'm still alive to be late to something rather than well, not being alive. Actually took the time to scrape all of the ice off my car this morning, pulled into the nearby elementary school and rescraped because it got foggy and icy. It freaked the shit out of me and I was panicing that I couldn't see clearly and all - at 10 miles an hour at a 25 limit heh. Tips were alright, got my second $10 tip for a $3 order. Woot! It wasn't because the dude was interested in me either. How sweet. I freaked out and was like wait, is my math off? Got a $4 tip as well. And had to double check so many times because I was like, am I doing substitution right? Was pretty worn out today as well, not by my eyes being droopy or anything but my feet were screaming at me to sit down and rest. Came home and helped rake up the rest of the leaves in my uniform. Showered and just finished up my AP government notes. Checking myself and the kids out tomorrow for our dentist appointments - hopefully the attendance office will understand and not be dicks because I've been doing these things all the time recently because of mama being away, plus I always bring some kind of excuse or note from the doctor and I'm an honor roll student - don't see the use in skipping? Gotta study to take my AP Bio test this week as well as retake one of my college algebra tests at JCCC, fun. Chatted with uncle about Ami's relationship matters and also about relationships in general. I said I don't mind who she's with as long as the guy treats her right, is a good person, and has the qualities to invest and take care of her and not vice versa - even if the parents don't approve. He disagreed. He said that you're not allowed to go against parents' wishes and all. I simply said that I know parents want the best for us but if the person they dote on is not beneficial to us, has nothing to invest in, nor has the quality to take care of us why should we date that person then? If the parents like that person because that person has a sweet mouth and knows how to flatter the parents but gambles and has no ambition, then we should be the one to take a stand and reject them. If the person we like is wholesome and takes care of us like no other than I support the relationship wholeheartedly, no matter if they're white, black, or yellow. I'm a picky person to a certain extent about dating but in the end, all I want is a relationship that has warmth and understanding and protection - love. And that's what I look for in other relationships too, in my friends' and my sister's. If the guy sucks - I won't defend him or put a sweet word in plain and simple. I'm not going to let my girls suffer.

My cuddle buddies update from last year to this year. This is half of em, the other half is placed away b/c they're from the past.