I guess I'm wrong.

Tonight made me realize, I still love him. Seeing him made my heart ache. It felt like something kept trying to rip it out. Throughout the whole night I tried to keep things calm, tried to be friendly and open but deep inside, I was holding back the tears. Only now am I able to let it all flow out. What am I to do? To see him moving on, without me, just makes me want to die. I want to drink until I pass out tonight but there's nothing to drink when I've already cleaned out all the liquor I had. Oh god, why do you torture me with love? Why can't I be friends with him? Why do I still love him? How and why is this happening? Life, you are pure evil. Guess I'm back to working until I drop unless I turn into an alcoholic.