CNA -> ADN RN.

Prequisite

You must have ONE of the following:

• English Composition I course at an accredited U.S. college with a "C" or better.
• ACT English test score of 19 or higher, with the test having been taken within the past two years.
• COMPASS reading test score of 64 or higher, taken within the last two years. Contact JCCC Testing Services if you need to take an ACT test.

CNA classes are offered every semester.

Four-week courses are 8 a.m. to 4:30 p.m. four days a week.

Eight-to-16-week courses have varying schedules:

• Three days per week from 5 to 9 p.m.
• Two days per week from 9 a.m. to 3 p.m. or 5 p.m. to 8 p.m.
• Online classes meet on their scheduled day(s). Clinical days and times are determined by class instructor.

First Day of Class

You must provide copies of the following (for more information see Additional Costs):

• Current TB skin test results or negative x-ray(Within' the last year)
• Current CPR for Health Care Providers certification card
• Social Security Card
• Liability Insurance Receipt

Olathe Health Education Center - OHEC21201 W. 152nd St.
Olathe, KS 66061

*Ami still has her uniforms and textbooks.

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RN Program
Must have all general education
Take ACT, have a composite score of at least 17 and at least a score of 18 in Science Reasoning.

Call 469-3809 to reserve seat for the informational meeting

Day	Date	Time	Location
Tuesday	July 9	3 p.m.	CC 211
Wednesday	July 10	5:30 p.m.	CC 321
Tuesday	Aug. 6	3 p.m.	CC 211
Wednesday	Aug. 14	5:30 p.m.	CC 211
Wednesday	Sept. 11	5:30 p.m.	CC 232
Tuesday	Sept. 17	3 p.m.	CC 211
Wednesday	Oct. 9	5:30 p.m.	GEB 233
Tuesday	Oct. 15	3 p.m.	CC 211
Wednesday	Nov. 6	5:30 p.m.	GEB 233
Tuesday	Nov. 12	3 p.m.	CC 211
Wednesday	Dec. 4	5:30 p.m.	CC 211
Tuesday	Dec. 17	3 p.m.	CC 211

Ice Skate.

Last night Dani called me around 11:10PM to ask if I could come in today(Monday) from 12-5PM, to which I replied no since I already have plans. She flips out on me and says that I had said I could work on Monday a few hours ago(I had been at work in the day). I said no, I said I can work on New Year's Eve which is Tuesday. She got all mad and hung up. Wth? Then the next day I find out that Michelle got called in to work 12-5PM on Tuesday. Wth? I said I could work on Tuesday if they need me but Dani was so against it. I don't get it. Anyways, I dreamt that I was in this school park, and Tory - my classmate from last year in math. There were trees or vines that grew celery? I made the kids suck the juice out of the celery stalks and made them throw away the pulp. Wtf? And Tori kept putting a bomb in the shape of a juice box next to me and kept lighting it. I was like wtf no! Stop it, and kept blowing out the fuse. I also lived in this creepy, dark, filthy apartment that had electricity outages and all these dark, gloomy, demon stuff. Like it was a inspiration from the Divergence books, odd? Kept waking up in the middle of the night such as waking up at 5AM, then 8AM, then finally 9AM. Pulled myself out of bed and proceeded to make banh da do for uncle, and the kids as breakfast/brunch(?). Watched Sinbad with the kids for a bit until Mr. Andy took em for a play date with Helen and Eric. A bunch of people bailed which irked me and the times for ice skating kept getting changed so one of the people just said forget it and didn't go. I wouldn't blame em, plus the time thing wasn't in my power since I'm not the ride. Grabbed lunch at another Sonic, they got my burger wrong. I asked for mayo and habanero sauce but they put bbq on it instead. Sad face. Michelle's car wouldn't start afterwards so we had to sit for a good 10 minutes and started to freak out. Tried one last time and it started. Headed to Town Hall to skate, didn't realize how cold it would be on the rink. Stole Michelle's gloves and she exchanged coats with Meg. Poor girly. We both hung onto the rail until after 5 minutes or so and then I got pulled into the middle of the rink. I literally could not move at all even when I tried the kick, glide, kick movement. I got really close to falling down but I balanced myself and ended up just squatting. One of the guy who was part of the staff came to my rescue..even though I was perfectly fine haha. Megs went into to warm up after a while and I tried to follow, that's when I fell on my knees. The same staff guy came up to me and knelt down to see if I was okay even though I had got back up before he made it to me. I wonder if they're assigned to certain people? Because another staff member never tried to help me even though there was like 3 of em on the rink and Megs never got asked if she was okay either even though she fell at least 3 times and it seemed like it hurt really bad! Awh but we got better! I figured out that I just had to use the normal movement I use when I roller skate, except the fact that ice skating makes you use the toe picker which I can't really use so I just kick off and glide and move around like I do on skates. We skated until 5:19PM so we got a good 2 hours or so of skating. Watched them smooth out the rink with the machine thingy. Got free blankets and went to our Sonic for some coffee and hot tea. I figured I could make it to the Kizuna party but Michelle's car wouldn't start again after so long. Her brother in law picked us up and dropped us off at Michelle's house and I got dropped off around 7:45PM. It's not that late but I was so pooped. I am definitely bring gloves and hats next time I go ice skating!  

Unprofessional and distasteful.

Call it jealous, call it paranoia, call it being a bitch - but what it is is standing up for one's self.

子供の日。

Head into work today, was late by 5 minutes and got scolded. Gotta make it up tomorrow by arriving at 6:30AM. Oh fun. Actually took the time to apply full face make up today and eat brunch/lunch(?). Andi stated that she doesn't when I wear make up and that I look better without it on while Alex didn't notice any difference. Typical? Put on my funny knee high socks and pigtails. You could say I went for a little school girl look. Tips were pretty good early on. Got a dollar from almost every order until lunch then people start tipping once in a while, didn't even get a dollar or $.50. Wth. Why do I always end up with less tips at the end of the day compared to other servers even when I've been there the longest and put the effort into looking good and being all cheery!? I sense prejudice. For example I'll have $50 at the end of a 10 hour shift while someone else who's been there for 6 hours has $70. It literally makes me steam. Meh, it's okay. It's not my career, just a part time job and I'm going to try to get another one later on. Gah, cannot wait to get my surgery so then I can show it to everyone who deemed me inferior. 

Date Debate.

Received a call from Dani around 6:04AM, asking me to come in and open since Ravon called in, even though I was scheduled to come in at 11AM. Reluctantly I agreed because it's money and I doubt anybody else picked up when she called. Laid back in bed for a couple of minutes only to realize later on that I slept until 7:12AM. Rushed like crazy to finish, still had around 10 minutes left before departing. Came out and saw so much ice on my car, wtf. I couldn't insert my key into the hole to unlock either since it was frozen shut, even after pouring warm water into the keyhole. For a moment, I thought I was gonna have to call Dani and tell her I couldn't make it unless I got a ride but luckily I got it open after so much jamming! Got to work late but still better than never. Couldn't lock it and Dani let me borrow her antifreeze spray to de-jam it and it worked like a charm! Oh my goodness.
Been thinking about relationships lately, yeah there's an edge of why giving it another try would be beneficial but there's also the scars from the past that just stand out at you like a red light. What's the point of getting into one at this time in life anyways? I'm starting college soon and so are others, some will be setting out to far away places, all will meet new people that may be better off with someone than the person they think at the moment. A relationship will divulge my attention from my studies as well, so why? And opening up as well, how do you open up when you've been closed for so long? It's not a physical factor either so it's harder to grasp since it's so abstract. I had made a little debate about it on FB and I really liked the responses I received!

Austin's comment got chopped up but I really loved it!

"I feel that you should always be open. 

Personally, I feel people will naturally be predisposed to being closed or open, so sometimes that will simply mean don't close yourself off from everybody. 
You are likely to be hurt more often if you're open, I confess, but being closed won't save you from pain either. Since we're going to be hurt in life regardless, why not take a chance on love? 
No matter what you do or how you live, you will be hurt in life. Sometimes it'll be by accident, sometimes it's on purpose. But regardless of how many ways or times we're hurt in and at, we have to remain open or we'll just become shriveled, puny, grumpy people, who refuse to love. People who refuse to love will rarely receive love. So, in most cases, a person won't love you [be open towards you] if you're not loving [open]. 
The way I see it, you can be closed and experience less pain, but also have drastically less love. Alternatively, you can be open and be hurt more by others, but you will also have the opportunity for greater love in your life. 
Furthermore, it is to our benefit to experience greater pain alongside love. There must be opposition in all things, otherwise they would cease to be. If you were never sad, you could never be happy. If you were never hurt, you can never love. Ergo, the more pain you experience, the greater your capacity for love is. 
In the end, I feel that since you're experiencing pain either way, why not experience it in a form that allows you to better experience and savor love? Why cripple yourself and prevent yourself from loving, especially since you'll still end up hurt from time to time? If you can't love, then why would you bother to continue living such a dreary and droll existence? Love is what life ultimately boils down to, so it's no contest for me. I'll be one-hundred percent open, no matter how many scars I accumulate or how many tears I shed."

Been also reflecting on my past. I really cannot tell if I'm over him or not. He's just another person to me and I really don't have that piercing feeling I get when I think about him, I just don't want to see him face or anybody involving him. But am I ready to open up? I'm not sure if I want to just yet. And when a certain someone kept mentioning Cobe and basically guilt tripping and pressure me into a relationship. I absolutely hate that. I hate others trying to influence my love life. I don't care if a million people doubt or believe in a relationship I may be in because it consists of two people, not one more or less. Conflicts and issues are to be dealt between the two. Sometimes, this is one of the major reasons why I may keep my relationship in the dark because the less people that know about it - the less they can stick their input into it. It makes the person they're trying to praise a turn off to me and I just want to escape whoever they're praising and them.

Male:
Biết em không về, tình cũng không quay về,
I know you won't return, I know our love won't return.
Biết anh nơi này đã mất người.
I know when saying this, I have already lost you.
Em đã thay lòng không yêu anh nữa rồi mà sao anh vẫn cứ nhớ.
Your feelings have shifted, no longer loving me yet I keep longing.
Và anh biết em bây giờ chỉ mong anh nơi này chia đôi cuộc tình của đôi mình.
And I know you only hope that I suggest breaking up.
Và anh biết anh dại khờ vẫn yêu em đắm say,
And I know I'm naive for still loving you endlessly.
Con tim anh sao quá ngu ngơ.
Why is my heart so foolish.
Bao nhiêu năm qua con tim yếu đuối,
So many years, my heart is weak.
Bao nhiêu yêu dấu chỉ trao đến em
So much love has been given to you.
Mà tại sao em vẫn đi mà tại sao em vẫn làm anh đau.
Why do you leave, why do you hurt me so.
CHORUS:
Một cuộc tình tan vỡ dù 1 người hạnh phúc
A broken heart even though one person is happy.
Còn 1 người rất đau mà em đâu hay biết.
While the other is really hurt, do you know that?
Nơi chốn này anh vẫn luôn mong chờ
In hopes, I still wait.
Ngày mai em quay về bên anh.
Tomorrow you'll return to me.
Một cuộc tình tan vỡ dù không ai mong muốn
A broken heart, no one wanted that.
Mà anh vẫn phải tin rằng em đã quay bước sẽ không trở về..
But I have to believe that you've left and will never return.
Phải cố gắng chấp nhận rằng em không quay về đâu.I have to accept that you won't return.

Female:
Biết a không về, tình cũng không quay về,
I know you won't return, I know our love won't return.
Biết a nơi này đã mất người.
I know when saying this, I have already lost you.
a đã thay lòng không yêu e nữa rồi mà sao anh vẫn cứ nhớ.
Your feelings have shifted, no longer loving me yet I keep longing.
Và e biết a bây giờ chỉ mong e nơi này chia đôi cuộc tình của đôi mình.
And I know you only hope that I suggest breaking up.
Và e biết e dại khờ vẫn yêu a đắm say, 
And I know I'm naive for still loving you endlessly.
Con tim e sao quá ngu ngơ.
Why is my heart so foolish.
Bao nhiêu năm qua con tim yếu đuối,
So many years, my heart is weak.
Bao nhiêu yêu dấu chỉ trao đến a 
So much love has been given to you.
Mà tại sao a vẫn đi mà tại sao a vẫn làm e đau. 
Why do you leave, why do you hurt me so.
CHORUS
Rap :
A sẽ không quay về đâu , a sẽ không quay về đâu
I won't return(2x)
Chỉ mình e mang nỗi sầu trong từng đêm thâu
Only you will harbor sorrow in your bosom in the nights to come.(Guy's POV)
Có 1 thời gian qua mau , có 1 thời gian qua mau
Time passes by quickly (2x)
Để quên đi nỗi đau , để yêu thương úa màu
To forget the pain, love's color will fade
Cầu mong ngày mai nắng lên
Pray that the sun will rise tomorrow
Xua đi bóng đêm buồn đau
To wash away the night's sadness
Xua đi nỗi đau trong lòng
Wash away the pain
Để e thôi chờ mong , để e thôi hy vọng
So you won't wait, so you won't hope
Và quên đi những ngày tháng đắm say
And to forget our loving days
Những làn môi hôn ngất ngây
The ecstasy our lips shared
Mình có nhau nơi này…
We have this burden

Sẽ mãi ko quay về và người sẽ mãi ko quay về
I won't return and they won't return
Chỉ còn mình e nơi đây ngồi lặng nghe chua cay
There's only me left, sitting here listening to the sour sorrows.
Yêu dấu nay như áng mây
This love's pain is like a dream
Tìm đâu khi xưa ta nồng say
Hurting from the bittersweet memories of the loving days.
Những môi hôn ngất ngây
Each kiss like ecstasy
Húuuuuuuuuuuu u…. y yeahhhhhhh.

It's not love until it hurts.

Came home from work last night, washed up and went over to a family friend's house for lẩu, consisting of lamb, beef, shrimp balls, shrimp, soft tofu, mushroom, bok choy, and noodles. Watched sailor moon for a majority of the time until they started karaoking which I then retreated to a corner by an outlet to text like an antisocial. Left around 11PM so I spent a good 5 - 6 hours awkwardly by myself. Woot. Had an odd dream. Been watching surgeries lately so that may be why I had such an odd dream. Dreamt that I got the male - female surgery and then I had intercourse. Gotta say, that was the suckiest intercourse I had ever had. There was also this split universe in my basement as well. There was a raised stage and there was a switch where it changed the universe. It accidentally been switched to the evil one and the family I saw was creepily horrific. They were in rags and had blood all over them, possessed or so with crazy eyes. They were limping towards me, almost getting off the stage so I had to frantically change the setting to a nice, peaceful Christian family lol. Then somehow I was in the streets of Vietnam and there was huge bubble balls that covered about 10x10 sq ft all over the city. The world was coming to an end and everyone took shelter inside these bubbles and they were scattered along side sidewalks and roads as well. Odd. I was separated from my family and the kids along with some other kids who I looked after? Anywhos, woke up. Made tuna sandwich, watched sailor moon. Made brownie cake with chocolate chip(the brownie has a cake texture rather than the typical spongy texture brownies have). Andi came home from Bac Phung's house, cuddled, and snacked on brownies. Afterwards I was sent outside to go fry the eggrolls in the cold without socks. Brrrr. 

Talked to the other side and it was going alright I guess. Was still upset that they went against my heeding but whatever - I told em so.  Then mom comes outta nowhere telling me to tell Dudley to back off and all that or else she's gonna call the police and all that because he started IMing and commenting on Ami's posts. Wth? It's just regular talk, weather talk! I have no place and neither does she to interfer with their relationship/friendship. Yeah, she's married and she's unhappy as well. So duh. I told her to wait, she's still in school and have little siblings under her plus an uncle and two aging parents to be concerned with instead of a husband who she hardly knew! I didn't mind them having feelings for each other, I'm just saying they should've waited and see how it goes instead of rushing in. Of course he's gonna be all sweet towards you when he's courting you but afterwards yes the guy will change and there will be less affection, that's why you wait and find out more about him before jumping in and tying the knot. I been through all that shit and phase. I may be younger but I am wise in the area of love and boys beyond my mother and sister. I've been through all that shit, I know what to avoid and what to expect so listen before you get fucken hurt than complain. Then mama continued to trash me because I wouldn't succumb to her bidding of calling Dudley out. Got so piss and tired, didn't wanna argue so I hung up. No, I am not worthless because I won't do this nor are you gonna die. If we hitch up with the wrong guys it's our mistakes for either listening and being pressured by everyone around us or cause we're too blind by what we thought was love. So many of my relationships don't work out because of these parental things. SMH. Another major reason why I don't want to get involved with guys. Even if they introduce me to a dude, and say hey I give you my blessing wholeheartedly! I don't give a fuck. I don't know who the fuck the guy is and I don't love him either. I don't want to love any guy romantically. Too much shit with your family is involved, especially when they make themselves your priority. So, best thing is to just stay single and focus on your education like I had said. If there's mutual feelings, then great. Just wait it out and see our the friendship goes instead of rushing in and now his "affection" has died off and leaves you in the middle of the night and doesn't return. Yes, he's not going to kiss your forehead nor hold your hand in public anymore. It's because he didn't love you - at least not yet. Love takes time, love takes effort, love takes pain, struggles, and sacrifice. If you haven't invested any of those than it's not love. 

Do you wanna build a snowman, come on let's build a snowman.

Woke up around 6AM for some odd reason, wasn't feeling too good. Did the v-line mask and just felt absolutely sick afterwards. Fell asleep pretty early as well. Around 11PM or so even though I was sleepy since 7PM. Went back to bed and woke up around 8AM, got outta bed and got ready for the day. Ran errands, played in the snow with the kids(Andi got sick afterwards and I had to clean up her vomit - ugh). My jaw and face ached the whole day and yesterday since I did the v-line mask after so long and it did not feel right at all. I don't think I'll do it anymore since last night plus I'm pretty content with what my face shape is now. Not opening tomorrow but still working early in the morning. Megs isn't able to come in since her mom is worried that she's still sick. Sad face. 

No edit, really loving my v-line!

A life with love is happy; a life for love is foolish.

Got up around late 6AM, ugh. So sleepy. After I was done I opened the door and found a sleepy, messy headed Andi with major eye bags. So freakin' scary! She looked like the girl that comes out of the TV in LOR, gawd. Work was alright, only had three carhops in the morning until Happy Hour which is when Stacy came in. Megs was suppose to come in but she has bronchitis, poor babe. Today was suppose to be 1/2 Price shakes all day but there really weren't that much ice cream orders, which I don't blame because it's freezing outside! I think a want a poodle skirt like Michelle now, ugh. It's so cute and feminine! Except I don't wanna seem like I'm copying her, boohoo. Literally spent 20 minutes outside while it was still freezing rain to scrape my windows. First I had to hit the windows with the stick to create a hole then go from there. I was scared I might break my window, eek! Should've just done what Roy did and roll my windows down then go all martial arts on the ice haha. Went crazy at Wal-Mart and bought bags upon bags of..french fries. Like wtf haha. Bought 5 bags of it, used half of my tips today on it and the rest on gas haha. 

Hua Mulan.

Got woken up by dad around 5AM to find something. Went back to bed and woke up around 8AM to take the kids to their appointment. Got gas and tried to pump my tires as well but the machine was acting funny so I was like meh, I'll do it later. Made tuna sandwiches for breakfast, didn't have enough mayo and I think I used too much tuna and egg - ugh. Started watching Hua Mulan Chuan Qi, the 2013 one around 11AM and just stopped. On Episode 15 now muwahaha. Totally hooked onto it. Meg's sick so she won't be at work tomorrow morning. So sad.

Finished finals.

Turns out I didn't even have to take the ceramic's final, even though I crammed until the last minute in class. Wtf. Oh well, woot! Don't gotta do sheet. Pretty sure I bombed the Japanese final, and not in a good way. Just hope it doesn't lower my grade too much. Dressed up a bit and felt so pretty, got a lot of compliments. Wore my new knee high sock tights and oh my goodness they are so cute! Only thing is, I just got it yesterday and wore it today - already got so many damn little holes in em. WTH?!? It's not in the thick area like the false knee high sock but in the thin parts around my thighs. Nooooo! Ugh. So upset. Picked up juice packets for Andi and Alex's party today and dropped it off. Went to the movies and was late for the 11:35PM showing, so went to the 2:20PM instead. Ate at Haru's then went to Cobe's house to play with Titan and Molly to kill some time. I gotta agree though, Hans did look a whole lot like Zack! I'm not too sure about Christoph but oh my goodness Hans had an uncanny resemblance! It must've been so awkward for poor Michelle. Taking the kids to their appointment tomorrow morning as well, was gonna go to JCCC to retake a test as well but dad doesn't want me traveling far if it snows. Eeeek. Might be getting another job as well. Since I have late start and basically a study hall as well so I'll be able to keep working my 20 hours at Sonic on the weekends and night shifts at the center. Mollah mollah! Can't wait.  

Shopping spree on finals.

Got an A on my math final! Woot! Pretty sure I got an A on my English one as well, plus I got all 20 bonus points! Got my sixth hour of photography changed into Mrs. Long's teacher aide so I have two hours off and an hour of just goofing around and messing with clay. Went out for lunch with Michelle and Megs. Got my early Christmas present from Michelle and I gave her the hot pink wallet I got her. Went to the mall later on and shopped. I ended up buying more stuff than her, oops. Another $100 down the drain, it's okay I'll regain it all once I start working everyday during break. They were so cute too though! Came home and pretty much jacked around for a bit. Took the kids on a walk then came home and studied a bit on Japanese. Still don't feel very confident, damn my cramming habits.

Japanese Final Notes.

ＡのほうがＢ（ａｄｊｅｃｔｉｖｅ）。

ＡＢＣのなかでＡが一番（ａｄｊｅｃｔｉｖｅ）です。

すぎる：Ｔｏｏ　ｍｕｃｈ。Ｄｒｏｐ　ｍａｓｕ　ａｄｄ　すぎます。

なきゃいけません：Ｍｕｓｔ　ｄｏ　ｓｏｍｅｔｈｉｎｇ．Ｄｒｏｐ　ます、Ａｄｄ　なきゃいけません。

ほうがいい：Ｃｈａｎｇｅ　ｖｅｒｂ　ｔｏ　た／だ　ｆｏｒｍ　です。

つれてくる：Ｔｏ　ｂｒｉｎｇ　ｓｏｍｅｏｎｅ

かぶる：Ｔｏ　ｗｅａｒ　ａ　ｈａｔ

せがひくい：Ｓｈｏｒｔ　（ｓｔａｔｕｒｅ）

すてる：Ｔｏ　ｔｈｒｏｗ　ａｗａｙ

うんてんする：Ｔｏ　ｄｒｉｖｅ

さびしい：Ｌｏｎｅｌｙ

あどる：Ｔｏ　ｄａｎｃｅ

にんきがある：Ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｐｏｐｕｌａｒ

おぼえる：Ｔｏ　ｍｅｍｏｒｉｚｅ

うんどうする：Ｔｏ　ｄｏ　ｐｈｙｓｉｃａｌ　ｅｘｅｒｃｉｓｅ

さんぽする：Ｔｏ　ｔａｋｅ　ａ　ｗａｌｋ

せいかつ：Ｌｉｆｅ

せかい：Ｗｏｒｌｄ

ふね：Ｓｈｉｐ

がっき：Ｓｅｍｅｓｔｅｒ

きおん：Ｔｅｍｐ．

くもり：Ｃｌｏｕｄｙ

せいせき：Ｇｒａｄｅ（ｏｎ　ｔｅｓｔ）

あるく：Ｔｏ　ｗａｌｋ

なくす；Ｔｏ　ｌｏｓｅ

おしえる：Ｔｏ　ｔｅａｃｈ

まなぶ：Ｔｏ　ｌｅａｒｎ

ーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーー

おたく：Ｓｏｍｅｏｎｅ’ｓ　ｈｏｕｓｅ

おとな：Ａｄｕｌｔ

こうこく：Ａｄ

ぶつか：Ｐｒｉｃｅｓ

ぶんぽう：Ｇｒａｍｍａｒ

べんごし：Ｌａｗｙｅｒ

みせ：Ｓｔｏｒｅ

ぼしゅう：Ｒｅｃｒｕｉｔｍｅｎｔ

からい：Ｓｐｉｃｙ，　ｓａｌｔｙ．

きびしい：Ｓｔｒｉｃｔ

あむ：Ｔｏ　ｋｎｉｔ

かす：Ｔｏ　ｌｅｎｄ／ｒｅｎｔ

みがく：Ｔｏ　ｐｏｌｉｓｈ／ｂｒｕｓｈ

かんどうする：Ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｔｏｕｃｈｅｄ

おくさん：Ｗｉｆｅ

ごしゅじん：Ｈｕｂｂｙ

りれきしょ：Ｒｅｓｕｍｅ

りょうしん：Ｐａｒｅｎｔｓ

けち（な）：Ｓｔｉｎｇｙ

おくる：Ｔｏ　ｓｅｎｄ

にあう：Ｔｏ　ｌｏｏｋ　ｇｏｏｄ　

あきらめる：Ｔｏ　ｇｉｖｅ　ｕｐ

そうだんする：Ｔｏ　ｃｏｎｓｕｌｔ

ちょうど：Ｅｘａｃｔｌｙ

かもしれません：Ｐｏｓｓｉｂｌｅ　ｂｕｔ　ｎｏｔ　ｌｉｋｅｌｙ

たらどうですか：Ｗｈｙ　ｄｏｎ’ｔ　ｙｏｕ　ｄｏ　ｔｈｉｓ

Ｃｏｕｎｔｅｒｓ：

～こ：Ｓｍａｌｌ　

～さつ：Ｂｏｕｎｄ　ｖｏｌｕｍｅｓ

～だい：Ｅｑｕｉｐ

～ひき：Ｓｍａｌｌ　ａｎｉｍａｌｓ

～ほん：Ｌｏｎｇ　

Ｐｅｒｉｏｄ間に回です。

Cram 2.

Sooo sleepy. Had a few odd dreams last night and the night before but can't remember em. Been to occupied with cramming and getting ready for finals. Crammed during seminar again for biology but I still feel like I did better on my government even though I didn't get a chance to study or look over anything for that subject, instead I spent everything on biology - not to mention I got a little note card cheat sheet as well. Cleaned out my buckets in AP TD as well and donated all the fabric I brought - most of em I haven't even used yet. She wanted to go in the back and try on the dress to see how it came out but the thing was, I didn't wear a bra like usual plus it was finals! I'm gonna get all the sleep I can get and dress like a slob, ain't gonna worry about my appearance. I'm gonna worry about my grades! Then again, I never tried the dress on to make sure it fitted until I finished, fml.  Got English and College Algebra tomorrow, let's hope I can get everything done and well!

I can't zip it all the way up, not to mention I'm not even wearing a bra. Definitely made it too small.

Uno Cram.

Had a basic workday in most of my classes. So close to getting my dress done in AP TD. Officially got my two hours in the beginning of the school day dropped. Woot! Except I wasn't able to get ceramics in 6th hour, Perkins got upset when I told her that my counselor wouldn't allow me to retake Advance Ceramics and that it was full as well, even though I'd be in Mrs. Long's class instead of her's. Wah, Perkins is such an awesome teacher weeeee. So I may have ceramics sixth hour instead of digital photography. Stayed back after school in the library from 3PM-3:30PM, took a break to go pick up my siblings and change clothes then went back to school at 4PM. Continued to study, mostly AP biology, until 7PM. Took mini breaks to go grab some cocoa from the falcon's nest but nothing else really, tried to do the extra credit ap biology prompt but really couldn't. The environment just didn't fit me well since it was so loud and there were people who were cracking jokes and talking rather than studying. Tried my best to study but ended up just looking over my past test questions and filling up my notecard. Only filled up the front card with what I think I may need and still have the back blank. May fill in the back with some other notes from prior in class during seminar. Been studying AP biology more today rather than government even though I have that tomorrow as well. Don't think I utilized my study time to my full advantage but I still studied more today than I've ever studied before all in one day. Went out to dinner at Pei Wei's later on, so full gah. Came home around 8:30PM. Ended up helping dad with computer issues until 10PM. Studied a bit more biology, now just typing this up. Gonna have to review government tomorrow, oh fun. Hopefully I will nail everything in the low A to high B range. Fingers crossed!

You know I'm in major study mode when I feel the need to tie my hair up.

Poems

Decided to break up the last 15 points into a 10 point poem and 5 point poem. Gotta memorize these and study the other stories. Woot.

All But Blind by Walte Mare

All but blind,
In his chambered hole,
Gropes for worms,
The four clawed Mole,

All but blind,
In the evening sky,
The hooded Bat
Twirls softly by.

And blind as are
These three to me,
So, blind to Some-one
I must be.

Splinter by Carl Sandburg

The voice of the last cricket
across the first frost
is one kind of good-by.
It is so thin a splinter of singing

Red feet.

Bleh. So tired and my bed is always so warm in the mornings. Was scraping my car around 7:55AM and Tim called me to check up on me haha. Got there 5 minutes late from having to scrape my car but eh. It happens and it's winter! It was pretty slow and I didn't get a clicker in the morning so whenever I went out I'd always spend at least 5-7 minutes outside, knocking, and waiting for someone to notice me and open the door, there weren't many either. Tim had gone home, Chris was in the back cleaning the ice cream machine, and Francisca was in the back as well, restocking the kitchen. Anywhos, the whole day was pretty mellow and slow until Happy Hour came and we got slammed like no other. Not to mention we only had 3 servers! Like hell. Oh my gawd, half of our orders were late but we still did well - at least I'd like to say so. We kept our cool and surged on, at least tried. Came home later on, only to realize that I had left my phone at work so I had to drive all the way back to get it as well. Fun. Came home, showered, skim read chapter 16 of my government textbook and finished up my online quiz. So proud of myself that I got A's on both of my government quizzes this week even though I haven't read it properly heh.

#sorefeet#redfeet#9hrshift.

AP Gov't Chapter 16 Notes

16.1

• Quota requires a certain proportion of benefit to a certain group.

16.2

• 13th amendment(1865): No slavery.
• 14th amendment(1868): Blacks are citizens.
• 15th amendment(1870): Gave blacks a measure of political equality.
• The Civil rights act did not guarantee state citizenship nor did it force the states to honor the national citizenship rights.
• Plessy v. Ferguson: separate but equal.

16.3 

• NAACP founded by Bois.
• Sweatt v . Painter: forced to admit a black student into an all white Law school. Found that it was separate and not equal but did not reevaluate the separate but equal doctrine.
• Swann v. Charlotte: ensured busing of children to ensure desegregation of schools.

16.4

• Civil Right Acts(1964): Entitled all to full and equal enjoyments, equality in employment opportunities, strengthens voting rights, creation of EEOC(job discrimination).
• Elementary and Secondary School act: threaten of cutting educational funds if segregation remains.
• Johnson's great society: 24th banned poll taxes, Economic opportunity act provided education and training to combat poverty. 
• College v. Bell: governmental funds to a program or department must not allow discrimination.

16.5 

• Minority groups are able to seek payment for damages such as rejection of a job and other serious wrongs.

16.6

• Boy Scouts v. Dale: illustrates the struggles of gays and lesbians for civil right and modern conflict between freedom and equality.
• US v. Virginia: test for gender equality.
• Regents vs. Bakke: white application denied because spot was reserved for minorities.
• Gratz v. Bollinger: Court decided that school preferred race but also judged on merit, so race was not a sole factor.

My excuses.

Ugh, hate these kind of dreams. I can't remember the whole dream but I was in line, and Justin was behind me. We were taking photos and picking them up as well. Some kind of portrait thingy. HF and him were in the front, she was wearing a white and purple, long sleeves shirt while he wore his blue plaid shirt.  I saw in the photos he picked up, they were sitting across from each other and looking at each other, smiling. Bleck. What hit me was the way he was looking at her, with such tenderness. He's obviously in love with her, because he use to look at me with those eyes. Justin said to cover up my photos since apparently I had mine in my hands while waiting in line for nothing. Wtf? Because Corey was trying to catch a glance at my photos. And that Justin was watching out for me as well, odd?

I see a lot cute things between couples and there are times when I want to forgo everything and just be able to show someone that love again but then I stop myself short. I can't do that, I can't bring upon so much harm to someone, without the intention of shielding them from future injuries. My priority can't be them, at least not at the moment with school, family, and my current financial situation. My heart isn't fully healed, I'm not sure if I even have my heart or if I've given a part to anybody yet. Third, I'm scared of going out into that area again. What if we manage to stay together for some time and end up not working out? I don't want to go through all that pain again. What if he just doesn't possess the qualities of a husband but only of a teenage boyfriend, what to do then? So complicated. 

Was so close to falling asleep last night around 11:00PM, then out of nowhere I heard a thud which made me paranoid and flipped out. Couldn't sleep for the longest time. I was like bitches better not be messing with me or else if I catch em I will fuck them up before the authorities can come and protect em from my wrath. Woke up around 6:25AM. Did not want to get out of bed at all, it was so warm and cozy! Didn't even bother putting on my work uniform, just threw on my corp. fleece jacket and called it good. Had to scrape all my windows for a good 20 minutes. So cold but the snow and ice didn't stick to the glass as much as usual. Got there 20 minutes late as well. Didn't get scolded heh. Work was the norm, noticed Nate and Meg getting closer and I feel like the third wheel, cock block. Sad face. Gave Megs my fb account to login because I have nothing to hide and I trust her which is like a big deal because I don't even trust guys I date with my information cause it's like oh poop, he's gonna get jelly because of little things or because I wrote on this dude's wall. 

Tinh la gi? Tinh la mot sot xa hay la mot bong hua trong mua? 

Christmas Twist.

Wore my owl fleece pants to school. Was too tired to try to put an effort into my appearance. Slid down my drive way. Seriously thought Serenity was joking when she said that she slid and fell, but yeah, I slipped and it took forever to get down haha. Got a lot of cramming and assignments needed before finals. Fun. Had dinner at Mio's with the girls. Got dessert at DQ. Went to OE's Christmas Twist play tonight with the girls. I was mind blown when I realized that Miko's name is actually Jasen. It's like, wth? My whole word has been a lie. They all did a great job and it was a nice play. Couldn't stop laughing when Scourge moved though because you could see the outline of his junk so well. Saw one of the girl's boobage as well since she didn't wear a bra under her dress. The girl playing as COP was pretty awesome as well. When they were moving the setting and props, she was throwing snow with the other girl, she asked me if I saw her other boob. Did I hear her right and she was playing her part as a drunk, merry spirit or am I just that perverted? Maybe I'm losing my marbles. So pooped. Heading to bed for work tomorrow.

Crybaby.

I've been a crybaby today for some reason. I just get emotional easily and worked up. Probably starting my period soon.

Not your victim anymore.

Those who hate on me because of what others speculate. I have one question, why? You have not taken the time to sit down, speak to me directly, and get to know the person you are torturing so why are you so quick to attack a stranger? You avoid me like I'm the plague, you silently agree to the rancid whispers of my name, hell you take part in targeting me. Blindly following the black sheep into the unknown. Don't lie in your college resumes, declaring yourself as bold, righteous young citizens. You are prejudice, weak minded, and pathetic. You can't think by yourself, fearful of being shunned yourself. Kicking down others and feeding on the praise of your wimpy leader. Are you his offspring? Suckling at his tits as if his milk is the essence of life. I fear for your future children, passing these sick morals onto them. You won't be raising children, you'll be multiplying monsters. You are the offspring of Cain and Able, wicked and black souls to which no amount of cleansing will whiten again.

In your eyes I am evil, I am to be hated, I am to be purged from society. I am Sin in human form. You wish to isolate me, so that I'm the awkward, anti-social girl in the room with no one besides me, to look at me with contempt and scorn with those eyes. You desire me to be unhappy, in order for your leader to be satisfied and content. 

Bad news for you. I will not be beaten down and broken. I will not wither in the abyss of hell for your pleasure. I will not allow you to destroy who I am and what I stand for. I will not be forced into a corner and die like a mouse. You can try to victimize me all you want but I will not become your victim. I will overcome your insecurities' side effects. I will fight to the end. 

Unexpected date?!?

Had the craziest dream last night. First I was in this dark cabin, or wooden enclosure for storage. There was an antique radio inside, the front door was getting fixed by this man in a flannel shirt with acid washed jeans. The male owner and I caught the dude trying to steal the radio. The dude tried to make up some lame excuse but then dashed out the door. I tried to run after him then somehow I ended up in my room except everything was dark and glum. In the doorway stood an old hag, with a filthy, white dress on and stringy, raggedy black brown hair. Her skin was pale with dirt all over her distressed skin. She had a hammer in one of her hand and that's when I guessed ah fuck, I'm asleep. So I tried to hit myself awake and lunged at the hand with the hammer and fight her off because I figured that may wake me up. I woke up, 5AM. Wtf. Fell back asleep and I was at Wal-Mart. It was pretty warm outside and everyone was in t-shirts and shorts. Saw the horseface and Corey as I was walking in. Wtf, really? Ugh. I was whatever, I didn't want to see their face. Anyways, the sore was giving out free bandannas. Woot! Stocked up on em and other things and wake up to my dad calling me on the phone. Odd dream huh?
Fuuuhhhh. I agreed to a date, without knowing it was a date. Wth. I hate it when people call it a date. Absolutely hate it, especially if it was a hang out in the beginning. Please, for the love of gawd do not call it a date - especially if we're only friends and nothing else! Heck, even when we're close friends I still don't like calling things a date because when I think of a date I think of having to dress up all nice, be all modest and polite and do lovey dovey things. Bleck! I just want to hang out like buddies, burp, crack jokes, and scratch my ass crack like any other homie. Yeeeah, I'm not very lady like. I should be like repelling dudes, not having them call me up outta nowhere and trick me into a date without knowing. Maybe he'll forget? Ehhh, time will tell. Maybe we can be chill, watch the movie and eat like homies. Crack a couple of jokes and pick up girls? Yeah, I'm lame.
Got a few tips from a female friend and it helped. Dating when I'm not completely over my ex isn't fair to the next guy but sometimes dating can be okay too - just don't take it all too serious and think he'll be the one I marry. I mean, I'm pretty much over him. I don't see or hope of getting back together. When someone mentions his name I don't get all worked up, I just don't wanna see or hear about him because it's better off that way. As long as he's not dead then that's all that matters for me. I mean, he was my first love so I figure there's gonna be a part of me that'll always care for him but how do I know when I'm completely, totally over him? Yeah, dating will help but I don't want the next dude to feel like he's in my ex's shadow because nobody deserves that.