I felt so dead having to get outta bed this morning, probably didn't get enough sleep. Had dad take me to work since my car was getting a part replaced. Work had its rushes and slows, Jim Baxter came in towards the end of my shift as I was counting down and I had my phone out and I was like oh shit. Apparently we're going to have designated carhops, headset, ect now. That's fucken dumb though because the person who doesn't carhop don't make tip yet they're still paid sever's wage! Unfair, unjust, and illogical! Came home, ate, and quickly changed to attend Ami's graduation from beauty school. Afterwards I changed again to go out with the girls. Visited Kayla at work and I think the guys I hit on earlier where there because the one in black kept looking at me. I was like oh shit, is that really them? Got a lot of looks from guys today, not sure if they were checking me out or if I looked like an odd alien? Bought tickets for the To Do List and oh my goodness, that movie was so funny and informational for girls! I spot a lot of similarities and scenarios that I had in my past sexual experience which made me laugh and face palm myself at times. Gave a call back to see if I could get an interview tomorrow instead and turns out they're grouping the people and calling the candidates, so I'm guessing that it'll be a group interview? Eeeek! Never had one of those before and I feel like I won't be able to fully express or correctly express myself. Meh, it's okay if I don't get this. I'mma wing it, besides I already have a job so no worries! ( n _ n )
Coming home around 1AM, looking pretty rachet heh.
Got woken up by dad around 8:00AM to reminding me to get outta bed and enroll. Mama came in around 8:30AMish to nag em to get up and enroll early since she wanted to leave for work which is funny because high school enrollment starts at 8AM but elementary starts at 11AM. I was planning on enrolling myself around 10AM instead then swing over to Scarborough afterwards. Completed all the enrollments within an hour and a half, plus I arrived for the kids' enrollment before they officially opened. FTW. My tea concentrate arrived in the mail as well as the car part. Had a cup of it this morning before breakfast and I must admit, it taste nasty but it really suppresses the appetite. Had a bowl of rice and had an urge to throw up before I even came close to finishing it. Not because of taste but because I just didn't want to eat. How odd? Cobe came over and we tried to watch some Xuan Yuan but got caught up in playful fighting. He kicked me in vagina for kicking him in the dick LOLOL. Realized I got a missed call later on and it turns out someone had called me to see if I wanted an interview with them. Surprise, surprise! I had filled out applications for the heck of it since I was bored like two weeks ago and forgot all about it, then boom someone is interested in me. Last year I had to call people every single day to check on the status of my application and show how determined I was to get a job heh. I called them back 10 minutes prior to them closing to see if I could squeeze an interview in after work but the latest they could get was 3:00PM which was no good. They told me to call again tomorrow to see if they can work something out for the day after. Gah, so excited but also pretty mellow. Gotta wing the interview and if I score then I score. Gonna be difficult juggling two jobs and school with college exams but I know I can do it. Ganbaro! ( ^ o ^ )V
My stupid ass had to be nosy - after all this time I've been cautious by steering clear - and I click on a link resulting in something that upset me. I should've known! Just didn't think that I'd still be affected by it. All this pain and anger came rushing back. First was fear, then sorrow as tears kept falling. Anger quickly dominated and I just wanted to scream and unleash pain upon something. All the shit I've been through because of them, I let it be forgotten. I let the past's happiness blind me for a moment. It blinded me of the times when I cowered in fear that he would hit me, it blinded me of the fate he forced me into, it blinded me of the torture I experienced. I may be petty but I will never forgive them. Corey Kitivoravong, for the lies and irresponsibility; Sharon Lee and Kayla Bui, for the manipulation, rumors, and betrayal; Nikhat Noorani, for joining in on the bitching and lies. There are many others who "side" up with them and distance themselves from me even though I treat them with kindness and we had been friends long before they knew of him and them. I'm just angry at why so many people jump on the bandwagon and point their fingers at me while he does no wrong. I have been through hell and back, I treat you with kindness and I do not mention any matters of him so why do you all dislike me so much? I've lost so many acquaintances and friends but it's okay in a way. Karma will get them back for me in some way, it doesn't have to be anything major. Something like their battery dying in the middle of the highway is fine. As for the names I mentioned, I wish for them to go through much more pain than I did. I want them to feel the isolation and helplessness I did, to feel the emotional, mental, physical turmoil of having to losing your child, and I want them to seek repentance from me. In the mean time, there is no need for me to cry and be upset again. I've been spent months end doing that. It's time to be happy again because it's my life and I deserve it. No need to hide from love nor rush in and pretend it's something it's not. Guess what I'm saying is that I'm not going to force myself to wait until college to be in a relationship. If I happen to bump into the one and we walk the same path then so be it. It's something I'd prefer but if Cupid happens to strike the right one, I will not run in the opposite direction.
Smiling because I deserve to, actually it's because I look like shit when I cry LOL.
Got woken up at 8:00AM by mama and Ami for paperwork stuff. Couldn't go back to sleep so I got up and just chillax'd until it was time to leave for work. It was pretty steady busy the whole day but we got slammed for our dinner rush around 6:00PM to 9:00PM. Both Jims came in and helped with the rush, and I gotta say Jim Baxter's presence was scary as fuh and Ellison seemed pretty backed down. Did headset and carhopped all morning through happy hour and for the rest of the night I just expo'd. Cobe and Kevin came to visit around 5:00PM and dropped off their procrastinated gifts lol. I feel like I ate too much today. Gah, need to stop! Don't wanna gain the weight I lost from being sick haha. Anywhos, last night I had a dream and it was so odd. It has to deal with being in Japan or amongst Japanese people and I was in this wooden apartment. Then I ended up in a classroom and I was a mother of this little toddler girl. Somehow I had accidentally triggered something which caused fertilization then boom. I had a baby boy on the way. How very odd and unlikely because I don't plan on going down that road again, especially not alone and a single teenage mother of two.
Sigh. Anyways, two more relatives are immigrating over here. I dislike it! This is suppose to be my place to get away from their constricting, manipulative, and nagging ways. They think it's so easy to earn money and that status is everything. NO. This is the white man's land of 21st century. Not the yellow faces' of 20th century. She says she wants to come over for film but wants to go to LA. First off, do you know how expensive it is over there in American living terms much less Vietnam's currency terms? Second, all you care about is popularity and social status! Hence you pretend and dream to be famous celebrities and rich heirs like Taylor Lautner and Nhat Hoang. You fail in middle school that our aunties have to bribe the school to pass you, you skip summer school, and you get in fights with the other children all the time! You're gonna use the experience of study abroad in American to elevate your status and be "Oh, I studied in America" and blah blah. You have your heads stuck in the clouds that a rich, elderly man is going to adopt you and you'll live in America as a famous brat! Oh my god, I cannot fathom how utterly arrogant and naive people over there are. You have to work hard to get any place. Over here it's not all about money but also about dedication. I may come off as unfilial and alien to my roots but think about it, why would I waste my hard earn money to a place where the people are naive, arrogant, and narrow minded? To be treated as a klutz, carrying my aunts' and cousins' bags, and lectured. Who is that stupid? I have no friends, I know nothing, and I am defenseless over there. Over here I know the laws, the people, and I can survive. I don't even wanna bring anyone back with me if I had that option again. I'd only go back to show my husband where my roots are but I wouldn't visit them nor let them know I had return. I'm much more likely to return to Japan, Hong Kong, or Singapore than Vietnam though. That's how much I protest against their unjust way of thinking.
Smh, some guys just come on too strong. No, I do not want to massage you or touch you in any other way than a friendly hug. Sigh. Some boys. Today was my first day back to work since 2 weeks! Gah, it's been so long haha. Only two headsets work now and the clock in the front had broken. We hired a few more people but they stay on night shift so it doesn't affect me much. Tips were pretty swell today but I think I've become outta shape, plus I miss the taste of 'merican food heh. I don't think my thighs and calves will ever become as small as they use to be when school comes around.
Ate Culver's ice cream for breakfast since there was nothing to eat and I didn't wanna cook anything. Gave myself a simple manicure with small flowers since I'm not allowed polish at work. Felt like putting some effort into my appearance so I changed into a dress with short shorts. Curled my hair and camerawhored a bit. Went out for sushi with Alex at Haru's. Gossiped a bit and had him eat a gum ball size of wasabi on a piece of salmon avocado roll. His reaction was so funneh haha. Afterwards he invited me to go play volleyball with his family and he said it was just a while so I was like meh, sure why not since it'll only be a bit. Ended up lasting for 3 hours and I got a lot of bugs swamping me. They were all really nice to me and I sucked so bad at volleyball, it's only until the end of the game that I started serving the ball right. I felt more at ease playing with Samorah and gossiping, how silly huh? She asked if I was his girlfriend which I thought was pretty cute. His dad came later and we talked a bit, he asked if Alex and I were dating which turned kind of awkward. Did everyone suspect that we were dating? Because Alex introduced me as a friend and nothing else and we didn't do anything that might've given off the wrong vibe. Later on he told me that he thinks his parents like me because they kept asking if we were dating and stuff since I was dressed nice and I'm like nah. I didn't even know we were gonna play volleyball! I just wanted to feel pretty for a day.
After "playing" volleyball, I just kinda stood around and swatted bugs.
Woke up feeling pretty laggy. Ate soup for breakfast. Had an urge for some sweets so I walked to Walgreens around 1:30PM. Oh muh gawd it was so hot and sunny. I probably got a shade darker. Bought soft drinks, gummy candy, and half a gallon of ice cream along with sugar cones. I feel like I should've gotten the regular cones because you can't put as much ice cream as you can with these ones. I can't tell if I've gained weight or loss. My legs and calves are bigger and firm but my face has gotten pointer and slimmer. Sometimes my face is will be resting on my hand or I'll be laying on my face and it'll hurt from my bone structure. Wtf, who knew having a slim face had pain? I lack a lot of fat in my face and cheeks since a year ago but sometimes I'm able to get a double chin. So weird!? Sigh. Michelle and Megan wants me to come with them to CO for the last week of July and spend time with em in their family guest cabin while her parents stay in the main one. It sounds really fun but I doubt I can come! Sad face. Still can't decide between a new car and Japan either.
The bandaide the nurse stuck on my butt a few days ago. xD
I've realized. I'm starting to photoblog my days instead of blog. I'm turning into a major lazy butt! o _ o
I can't help but only remember the smiles but then I'll be reminded of the arguments, the electric atmosphere. I don't think I could see him again, much less with anyone. I already try to avoid anything that deals with him online so I don't have to see anything that might trigger something.
Babysat the whole day yesterday. Dad took my car into the shop for repairs and tune ups. I dunno, I'm still scared to drive on the highway with my car. Felt really fatigue and tired around 2:00PM so I took a nap until 4:15PMish when Jae called me to let me know he was coming over. Hang around, watched episode 23 of Swordsman. Went to McDonalds and fed my cravings for chicken nuggets hehe. Called Megan up and caught the 8:10 showing of The Conjuring. There was tight security to get in and there was a cop standing by the entrance the whole time. Not sure why? It creeped me out even more. The movie was really good but I couldn't stand the scary parts with the faces because I knew I'd get nightmares so I just shut my eyes at those parts haha. Went to Sylas and Maddy's for some ice cream and goofed off. When I got home, Ami told me that she had saw him at the movies when she went. How odd..? I'm kinda glad I didn't catch him, it makes things easier.
[ Can't do this on my own I need someone for when im alone could you just pick up the phone and tell me when you'll be home] Đã quá lâu rùi tay tui, khong được dắt tay ai theo It's been so long since I've been able to hold anyone's hand Đi đâu cũng chi một mình, không khác gì cây hoa héo Everywhere I go I go alone, like a decaying flower Xuân, hạ, thu, đông trôi qua Spring, summer, autumn, winter flows by Mùa nào cũng không ai theo Every season I'm alone Không phải tui không cố gắng mà vấn đề trước giờ cua gái toàn fail It's not that I don't try but that I fail each time Cua e A e A bị khùng Lady A is crazy Cua e B e chê tui lùn Lady B complains that I'm short Cua e C e đòi xế khủng Lady C wants a luxury car Cua e D e khinh nghèo túng Lady D complains I'm poor Cua e nào cũng thế hỏi thăm không thấy sớm tối đều bị hỏi cung
Every girl I go after just evaluates what I have Thế nên tui FA, không dám quen lung tung
therefore I'm FA and don't dare to hook around Bao nhiêu, bao nhiêu năm trôi tình, tình vẫn thế thôi
So many years of affection flows by are just blah Ai ngang qua rồi cũng bước vội
Everybody I cross paths with just leave in the end Thế nên tui ế, thế nên ê chề, thế nên tui bị bỏ bê
Therefore I'm single, being dumped each time Thế nên vào các dịp lễ chỉ mình tui lái xe trên đường về Tui không phải là bad boy, mặt mũi tui cũng không quá xấu
I'm not a bad boy, my face isn't that ugly Tuy tui không phải con nhà giàu nhưng mà tui sống biết phấn đấu
I'm not from a rich family but I know how to live comfortabley Vì người tui yêu tui sắn sàng làm mọi cách lo đủ họ ngày sau
Because with the person I love, I'm willing to do anything for them to live happily Nhưng vẫn đề ở đây là : Người iu ơi e đang ở đâu ?
But I'm still here waiting: Honey, where are you? [……………] Nhiều khi tui thích người ta nhưng người ta lại không thích tui
Many times when I like someone but they don't like me Không phải lỗi tại tui mà do có quá nhiều thằng theo đuổi
It's not that it's my fault but that I have too many competitors Vì một ngày số người tán tỉnh họ trên Facebook lên đến cả trăm
And on facebook they have so many admirers Nên tui muốn được người ta reply nói chuyện phải chờ cả năm
And I want them to reply back and talk with them year on Lễ tình nhân thì họ có nhân tình
Hook ups have each other Còn tui ở nhà ôm máy tính
While I'm alone at home on the computer Khi trai gái họ đang làm tình thì tui lại ngồi đánh liên minh
When a boy and girl are making love I'm on LOL Không phải là tui không kiên định tìm người iu cho riêng mình
It's not that I don't try but I want to find someone for myself Khổ nổi trước giờ tui iu phải ai thì chẳng bao giờ đc yên bình Muốn tìm một người dịu dàng : Nhưng k thấy đâu
I wanna find a gentle person: but I can't find Muốn iu nhầm người đàng hoàng : nhưng chẳng thấy nhau
I wanna love a good person: but we don't find each other Thường gái đẹp thì nó chảnh
Pretty girls are full of themselves Nói nhiều quá thì nó đánh nhưng muốn cua được thì phải ràng canh
If I talk too much then she'll get full of herself but if I wanna woo her than I gotta compete Vì im lặng quá thì thằng khác giành
Because if I stay silent she'll be won by someone else Dù tui cố gắng cách mấy hai từ may mắn vẫn không lung lay
No matter how hard I try it just doesn't have any effect Đêm về vấn một tiết mục bất hữu vẫn ngì một mình quay tay
Every night I come home to a swirling hand(masterbation) Rảnh rỗi bạn rủ cà kê, toàn đực rựa rủ cà phê Và quanh năm năm nào cũng thế nên quanh năm năm nào cũng ế [………….] Oh, tui không đòi hỏi cao
My standards aren't all that high Không cần phải giống như Hà hồ
It's not like I'm asking for Ha Ho(celebrity) Tui quen ai cũng được, miễn sao không phải là ma cô
Anyone is fine as long as they're not a monster Tui muốn có bồ, tui muốn năm stay, tui muốn hẹn hò
I want a partner, I want to stay together forever, I wanna date Hẹn nguyên cả ngày nhưng muốn hoài mà chẳng được
Wanting a date but not able to get one Thế mới cay ! How bitter! Meh, too lazy to translate some of the parts and help define.
I think back to the stupid arguments, the goals and hopes we both had for our trip to Vietnam, and how we'd take Chinese together but rewind the clock; past the time when you left me broken and shattered, past our butterfly stage, and before we had gotten together. Past the time when Jason and I were an item, before the time John gave me that necklace with you cheering in the backseat. Back to when we first met each other, you on the floor with the hat and a green, black jacket. Both shy and hesitant. What if I never spoke to you after that night? What if I had gotten together with John or Jason instead? Would I have experienced less pain? Would I still be with them or would it have been a sort lived fling? Reminiscing to the past to who I thought you were, one who actually accepted my flaws and whose arms would shield me from whatever it could. Who knew the person I trusted the most would be the one who stabbed me? Who would be the one spreading lies and acid while the arms are still around my waist. Pondering back, there are times when I feel as though I lost someone who treated me the best but then I think to the fact that he abandoned me and tarnished my reputation. I didn't lose someone who was the best thing that happened to me, I lost the best times I had with that person. Things happen for a reason, and I'm not ready to set myself back in that position. Maybe in time I won't be as scared to open the doors once again.
It appears as though he's losing interest, or maybe it's from both parties? There's less interaction, and each communication session is not as deep as they use to be. They hold little value, bleak and blunt. Maybe the wait is over?
Maybe it's mother nature, maybe it's me, who knows? I tend to reflect on the past and no matter how many times I may visit where he once reside, there's a coldness where warmth once was. The longer I stay around, the more it'll hurt and the more pain killers I down to keep the pain at bay. It washes across like the waves of the ocean on a brisk autumn. Memories, the past's present that kills and supports the future. Cleaned the chicken and made mash potatoes this morning. Andi helped with the peeling because she really wanted some mash potatoes hehe. Nothing new really happened today except for cooking and sketching up some projects aaaand camerawhored in the bathroom for a bit. I've noticed, I look better bare face without make up than with make up on. How odd eh. Posting up some photos from when I went blueberry picking as well from last week.
Been pretty icky these days so I haven't updated much. Apparently I did have strep and mono but nobody from the cultural clinic contacted me to let me know. Oh yay! I felt pretty weak when they had to draw blood and they weren't even able to find a vein in both of my arms. They had to try twice on my left arm to find anything. They said,"her veins are nonexistence" because of hydration. I felt pretty weak after they took my blood that I thought, "Crap, I think I'm gonna pass out and look so dumb!" Started getting the chills really bad and shaking hard. They took me off the penicillin since it didn't seem to work and took me off the pain killers, which I'm still gonna take because it hurts and it feels funny. They have me on cefuroxime, which was what they gave me in the butt for the first day, and prednisone. The first day I came back to work on my medication, Ashley said asked if my eyes were okay and said that I seemed so stoned out of my mind haha. Called into work around 7:00AM this morning, and turned in my doctor's note again. Michelle seemed terrified to come near me ahaha. I don't blame here after being sick for so long only to find out that I'm still sick. Oh yeah. They also gave me a shot in the butt. Yay! And not even an hour later Ami smacks me right on my shot area while I was lying on my stomach. Fun, fun. Went to renew the registration, so happy that my wait was only around 30 minutes unlike two years ago which was around 2~3 hours. I can taste my medicine when I burp or whatnot and ugh, it taste and smells horrid but at least my piss doesn't smell old and moldy like fungus. I've been feeling a lot better since the butt shot but I still have really weak spells and my throat isn't back to normal yet. On a side note, with all the days off it seems I'm finally experiencing what summer is suppose to be like. Lay around, sleep in, and be irritated at home. It seems as though the more I watch an Asian drama and I know how it's gonna end or something's bad gonna happen I'm like oh heo nah and I don't wanna continue watching it because well, it sucks and I don't wanna see it happen! Even in movies it appears as though after sometime, the love that was once in the guy's eyes just dies out and everything you've given done for him and everything he's done to pursue you just fades and it's not what it use to be. I forgot the saying I had concluded to earlier but it was pretty sentimental because I related to it too and it happens all too often in life.
I swear, as I get older it seems as though I start to look younger like the clock of time is reversing for me!
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There's nothing to eat at home and there's nothing out that I go buy and eat. My diet has consisted of rice porridge and water since Monday morning. I have to take 12 pills a day for the medication yet I hardly eat anything and work. Now rice porridge is out and I haven't had anything since 9:00AM, a small bowl of rice porridge. I worked a 6 hour shift and drank water through out the whole day. I only eat two meals a day consisting of rice porridge to survive and now there's none left.It's not that I don't know how to cook but I can't cook food I'll be able to eat and everybody has already ate and doesn't care. I can't swallow food or liquids without it hurting and I'm hungry. I hardly ate anything within' this week yet still working. I'm tired, lightheaded, and hungry and there's nothing to eat so I'm sitting lying in my bed sobbing because I'm really hungry, tired, and frustrated. I want to eat, and I realized from the photos I just took that my lips swell when I cry from hungry. I'm mad and hungry. I'm gonna take some more pills and sleep because I'm hungry and there's nothing to eat.
Been having a fever of around 101.3~101.8 since Monday morning. It always appeared that I would be better around mid-afternoon but by evening my fever would resurface again. On Tuesday morning around 11AM when I had to come downstairs to take my medicine and eat I would experience vision change. My mom would be handing me advil to take but my eyes would blacken out and I wouldn't be able to see so I had to feel around for a while. It happened more than once but each time was pretty quick, the longest lasted around 2 minutes. Went to the doctor's and he said it might be either mono or strep so they had to swab me to get lab results. It came back negative so he wasn't able to diagnose me with anything, gave me antibiotics just in case. Cobe came over to see how I was doing and later on Michelle had called me to see how I was doing and he picked up and miscommunications arose and she thought that we were in bed, together. No, that's a big no no. My fever started coming back around 10:00PM and I fell asleep around 10:30PM. Woke up around 7:00AM this morning and I wasn't able to fall back asleep until 9:00AM something. Went back to sleep around and had to get up around 11:00AM. Went downstairs and ate porridge. Took mini naps until 4:00PMish since I kept getting headaches whenever I was awake. Feeling a lot better today but I'm not sure if I'm able to go back to work tomorrow because of my canker sores and I'm not sure if I'm entirely better.
I think I have commitment issues now. With him, it's somewhat exclusive but I don't want to be called girlfriend or call him my boyfriend. It's so, complicated? Meh, it feels like our connection is not as strong as before. You could say, a bit distant? I feel like he doesn't like me as much and we're slowly becoming just homies. We are just friends though. Best friends with a thing? “I don’t even want a boyfriend. I just want someone who wants to hang out all the time, and thinks I’m best person in the world, and wants to have sex with only me.” Woke up with a fever around noon. Pulled myself outta bed and went downstairs for some mien. Cobe came over later on with gummies which made me pretty happy. Not sure why I was craving em. Watched some more Swordsman.
Rolled outta bed around 10:00AM. I felt pretty normal at work and my back didn't ache like the other day. We got slammed at 2:02PM for happy hour with at least 15 orders at once and it stopped at 3:55PM. We didn't slow down or have any miniature rushes. It just kept going and going. Alex picked me up after work and we headed to Wal-Mart to buy the dye. Had a difficult time picking out the right shade only to have it end up not showing. We either chose a shade too dark or we didn't leave it in long enough heh. Oh well, I'll redye his hair again in about 2 to 3 months so his hair has time to recover. His hair is more reddish and more of a tint rather than seeking into his follicles or maybe it was just his roots that got penetrated instead of the whole follicle. He dropped me off at AMC30. Michelle, Megan, and I watched Despicable Me 2 and I gotta say it's a pretty awesome movie even though I haven't seen the first one yet! I cried at the part where Lily was leaving for Australia and Gru kept moping and fearing rejection. I still say my favorite part was at the end when the minion sang I swear. I literally spazzed out! You can't go wrong with the BSB and N'sync! We picked up Kayla afterward and went for ice cream at Sheridans. I was pretty pooped out by the end after the movies. I'm not sure if it was because I'm on my period but I keep having these chills and it feels like all my energy is being drained from my finger tips and so on and just disappearing to somewhere and I keep feeling cold. It sucks. Maybe I'm about to catch a cold? So exhausted. Don't wanna talk or what not. Feel like passing out.
Woke up around 9:00AM to get ready for work. I felt so ick and laid in bed for around 10 minutes. Got up and realized, phokuh. I've started my period. How wonderful. Stepped into a mini rush when I got in. Guzzled more coffee, hehe. My back ached so much, not sure if it was because of my period? Before 2:00PM, Tim sent me home like 4 hours early and I was like woah but meh, I'm glad to be able to relax! Just kind of down about the cut from my hours. Brought 2 bags of ice since the ice maker broke for some reason? I still love sonic ice regardless. Found out that my Burghese Fango Mud arrived in the mail! I rushed to wash my face and try it out.
Price: $40
Rating: 4/5
I gotta say, the reviews were correct! It instantly has this tingling, cool sensation and when I wash it off my skin feels softer and looks whiter! Although the statement about it lasting a year for some people is totally off for me. I feel like I'll use it all within' 6 months hehe. It's pretty expensive but it's a good investment, especially since it's 17.6 oz! The only thing I dislike is how when I received it, the plastic seal or whatnot was broken and it looked like it had been used so that's the only reason why I'm giving it a 4/5 but otherwise it's awesome.
Merp. I think it's the hormones but at the moment I want somebody I could call hubby and be all cute with. Like cuddle, hold hands, and be all "oh, I'll be thinking of you while I slumber baby boo." Like those extremely cheesy, sweet things but I don't wanna get deep. I don't wanna be realistic and shit even though I know a relationship consists of reality after the butterfly stage. Ugh. Stupid hormones. I should just have a guy friend who I could flirt and sweet talk with and pretend that some day we'll run away and elope in Vegas. ( - _ - )*
Had work at 9:20AM. Guhhh. So pooped. Getting hooked on coffee lately. Been guzzling it down every day and the amount keeps on increasing. Drank 30oz of coffee and 10oz of lemonade. Usually I stay away from caffeine and I dunno, diet green tea hasn't been cutting it for me. Maybe I need to start eating something light with my green tea? Meh but I hardly have any time. Been pretty out of it at work and my energy just seems sapped up that I can't really focus. Sigh, is it because my mind is subconsciously distracted by someone or maybe I just keep a break to refreshen and unwind for a couple of days from work?
