So.

Look at somethings and it's so weird that the face I once held and stroked in my hands isn't mine anymore and that I can't do that. The life I almost had is gone, it's so weird. Not that I'm trying or wanting it, it's just weird thinking how things have turned out. 

Life is puzzling, it works its wonders in weird, twisted ways but it's okay because it'll all settle out in the end. I may not understand why things are the way they are but I'll know why later and it'll be for the best. I may throw a tantrum, I may get hurt and sit in a corner - sobbing and bawling like a child but after I'm done, I'll get up and apply on make up to hide the vulnerability, out the door I'll go to obtain success - head high and polished.

Commitment, such a difficult task. It requires the person to reveal their vulnerability, all their flaws, give or take to one person. So far, I've only been able to commit myself to one person. It's a heavy and time sucking task and the undoing is even longer and strenuous. I'm excited to commit myself, but only to the right one. I'm a picky person and only the very one will do. So, until then I will be focused upon my studies and money making. :)

Curled harrr.

Why hello hello. Been a while since I've done anything on here. Nothing new really except that I put in my two weeks at Sonic already and there's so many coworkers fighting over my shifts. Noticed that my face is starting to break out a bit and a bit bloated? Eeeek! Training is pretty fun, especially when I have Keo hold my purse and the trainer is like "wtf, how'd he get that" trololol. Picked up my check at the old store and I gotta say, damn. It is pretty bare there. 

Lately I have been having thoughts about other guys in general. There are times when I miss them but I snap out of it quickly. One because they're arrogant jerks, and two, because their insensitive attitude reminds me why I made the decision I made in the first place. I'd go back and try to seek some kind of honey only to receive stings. That is when I awaken and remember. I gotta say though, I am so mean to him yet he still puts up with my attitude - awh. Not sure why but that's so sweet, plus I'd drop him if he dare give me any smart mouthing. 

Outting.

Stashed cookies, card, HK, and chocolate in my locker on the one day I decide not to use it lol. 

Had Chinese at Bobo's beforehand with a friend then an hour later went out to City's Super Buffet with family then onward to Starbucks. I am so going to get fat and be rolling around. 

Misspelled my name..

Beauty or Health?

So much pressure from both sides. Dad and maternal relatives want me to get a business degree so then I can utilize it in Vietnam with the already existing foreign customers. Ami prefers me to get a cosmetology license first. I on the other hand just want to obtain my CNA license so then I can apply for the RN program and be on the way to become a PA. Sigh. I don't want to get all these licenses/degrees.

 Renewing passports.

Tired, grimy me.

I'm getting tubby.

2 bowls of rice then comfort food at BM at 9PM. No wonder I is getting chunky.

Last night.

Tired, eyeliner smeared, pudgy face.

Open letter.

A vague letter that describes my position.

Faysuh.

FTW.

Beat tator tot. 

Sleepy me at 3AM.

Death Cram.

All this last minute cramming will be the death of me. Procrastination at its finest.