Lost passion.

I use to be really big on my education, passionate about school and work. A workaholic at one time. Nowadays, the two things I loved the most I despise now. School is a drag and work is annoying. All I wanna do is lay around and waste away. What has happened to me? This isn't who I am. Have I burnt myself out by going to school every day and working almost every day? Is it because I haven't had any time to myself to relax and properly sleep? Is school overburdening me? Do I need a mini vacation to get away and sort out myself? Perhaps, but I don't have that time. I feel as though I don't belong to myself. Constantly rushing to be at a certain place, at a certain time to do things that I don't want to do. As though this life isn't mine, that I'm swirling in a haze, fulfilling my debt.

Tiring work.

Not sure why but I think the school and homework every night is wearing me down along with two jobs. Maybe it's my odd sentimental attachment but I miss FT. Prolly bc I'm use to the procedures and the coworkers there. Sigh. Marketgrille is alright for the moment, tips are getting better but they're loading me on with long shifts and more tables. Still unsure about my decisions and the future. I don't want to go to school or work anymore..I need to get away for a bit or something before I go crazy.