Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Favoritism,

Got woken up at 8:00AM by mama and Ami for paperwork stuff. Couldn't go back to sleep so I got up and just chillax'd until it was time to leave for work. It was pretty steady busy the whole day but we got slammed for our dinner rush around 6:00PM to 9:00PM. Both Jims came in and helped with the rush, and I gotta say Jim Baxter's presence was scary as fuh and Ellison seemed pretty backed down. Did headset and carhopped all morning through happy hour and for the rest of the night I just expo'd. Cobe and Kevin came to visit around 5:00PM and dropped off their procrastinated gifts lol. I feel like I ate too much today. Gah, need to stop! Don't wanna gain the weight I lost from being sick haha. Anywhos, last night I had a dream and it was so odd. It has to deal with being in Japan or amongst Japanese people and I was in this wooden apartment. Then I ended up in a classroom and I was a mother of this little toddler girl. Somehow I had accidentally triggered something which caused fertilization then boom. I had a baby boy on the way. How very odd and unlikely because I don't plan on going down that road again, especially not alone and a single teenage mother of two.
Sigh. Anyways, two more relatives are immigrating over here. I dislike it! This is suppose to be my place to get away from their constricting, manipulative, and nagging ways. They think it's so easy to earn money and that status is everything. NO. This is the white man's land of 21st century. Not the yellow faces' of 20th century. She says she wants to come over for film but wants to go to LA. First off, do you know how expensive it is over there in American living terms much less Vietnam's currency terms? Second, all you care about is popularity and social status! Hence you pretend and dream to be famous celebrities and rich heirs like Taylor Lautner and Nhat Hoang. You fail in middle school that our aunties have to bribe the school to pass you, you skip summer school, and you get in fights with the other children all the time! You're gonna use the experience of study abroad in American to elevate your status and be "Oh, I studied in America" and blah blah. You have your heads stuck in the clouds that a rich, elderly man is going to adopt you and you'll live in America as a famous brat! Oh my god, I cannot fathom how utterly arrogant and naive people over there are. You have to work hard to get any place. Over here it's not all about money but also about dedication. I may come off as unfilial and alien to my roots but think about it, why would I waste my hard earn money to a place where the people are naive, arrogant, and narrow minded? To be treated as a klutz, carrying my aunts' and cousins' bags, and lectured. Who is that stupid? I have no friends, I know nothing, and I am defenseless over there. Over here I know the laws, the people, and I can survive. I don't even wanna bring anyone back with me if I had that option again. I'd only go back to show my husband where my roots are but I wouldn't visit them nor let them know I had return. I'm much more likely to return to Japan, Hong Kong, or Singapore than Vietnam though. That's how much I protest against their unjust way of thinking.