DFBB.

She really is selfless. She had so much ambition, potential, and beauty. She was the leader of the Holy Sun Moon sect and was the only person to complete the Sunflower manual. Like wtf, she had the highest martial arts and her body was immune to all poison. When Yue Buqun lied about Linghu Chong's death, she went ballistic and killed everybody to avenge him! She also went up to the snowy mountains during nightfall to get a wolf's gall because she heard that it might save Linghu Chong since his internal energy was damaged and out of wack. When Linghu Chong passed out in the middle of the forest, she took off her outter robe to wrap around him and warm him up(that was basically consider being in your underwear ect). Another event is when she placed him onto a wheel barrel and carried him to Lingjiu temple where they wanted to kill her but she still took him there and stayed because she was willing to die just to save him! They tricked her and made her stay inside the ice room for who knows how long and she was willing to stay just to save Linghu Chong. Even after he stabs and injures her so many times she still loves him so dearly. Everybody thought she was dead afterwards but she still followed him and made sure that he never got hurt. In the end when Ying Ying's poison is activated she willingly gave up her heart so Dr. Ping could operate a heart transplant! Nobody knows of her good deeds or sympathizes with her. Forever she stays at the bottom of the lake. Omo..so heart wretching! All her feelings and things she does, I sympathize and understand it all too well. Why can't I be a man and just take her into my arms and love her? :(

I've never hated a character from the 'good' side before but omg LHC. He is slow and weak in martial arts, a big ol'e bum yet she loves him so. Killing hundreds, just for him even though he never shows much care. Heartless bastard. Just because she's from the 'bad' side yet he goes with Ying Ying. It's okay to love DFBB! Her heart isn't pure evil, she's just been pushed to take those actions. To the ever least she's not hyprocrite like those shaolin people. Murder is murder, killing people you believe is bad doesn't make you a saint. You silently hold her in your heart yet you will never act upon it and deem her evil for one reason. You don't think of the times she's done for you? You don't see the pain in her eyes when you hurt her? She's strong but she's still a woman with a heart! She's never done more damage to you then swat you on the arm or upside the head for a smart ass comment but you..you stab her in the heart multiple times! You raise your sword to her neck yet she never as much flinches. Your acidic words cut deep into her heart. You make her bleed yet she covers and protects you from any harm. Gawd damnit, why is it so difficult to be a girl. Loving stupidly and unconditionally.

This got me thinking. She wasn't able to let go but they weren't able to be together even though they held each other in their hearts. He was too stubborn to acknowledge it publicly after finding out she was from the evil sect. In the end, she did something for LHC's happiness. In a way she did let go, but she kept loving him as well? Giving her heart to RYY so that she would live which DFBB believed would contribute to LHC's happiness. Is it about time I do the same as well? Letting go? I think he let go a while back too when he unblocked. He didn't want to have the burden of hatred. I think he only wants to be a silent friend. Doesn't want to communicate because it might make things difficult but wants to make sure from time to time that I'm okay. I'm just afraid I might come across something I don't want to see. There's nothing left between the two of us except memories and the places we held in each other's lives. What he did is in the past and my son or daughter is no more, should I let go of that as well? He, I can forgive but others who interfere I will not. I hold true to my word. Letting go should be easier for the heart, no? Will I always feel like this or as time goes on my feelings and thoughts of him will dull and fade?

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