Am I stupid?

I want to meet your gaze once more and see if you'll fall before me. Or have I lost all of you already? Do you think of me as much as I think of you? Or are you too busy happily surrounding yourself with friends, dancing, and video games to even remember me? If I try once more, would it be all in vain and would I be back at square one, trying to forget you again? Are my efforts a waste? Should I try once again, or must I admit defeat?