Spent my Easter takin' photos, minus going to the movies for Captain America. Felt like a major fatso, chowing down on extra buttered popcorn and large drinks since I usually try not to snack while watching movies. Bad for metabolism. Towards the end when Steve Rogers fell into the lake, Alex sat there sobbing because he thought Captain America died. Haha, so cute.
Mama and Ami talked about my past, didn't really bother me but it seems like everyone is silently rooting and wanting the past to repeat itself. Uncle and dad be talkin' about it too but I usually just brush it off. Been having some crazy, wild dreams lately as well. I think it might be because of the silly things the family say that wander in to my mind. What happened happened, it's water under the bridge and we're both better off, no? He seems happy and I'm moving on and accomplishing things in life. :)
Been getting along well at night school, get a bit distracted on some nights because I get caught up in girl talk from time to time. I counted up my hours, been keeping track of hours too but in the computer it said I had 27 when I know for sure I have 34.5. What the poop?
Bella Dream;
One of the dreams I had the night before. I ended up with a little girl of 9 months, she had the classic black bob with bangs. I usually dressed her in yellow to orange clothes and clipped her fringe up with a bobby pin like how I would with my own. I had a feeling that she was related to them in some way but I tried my best to ignore it and hide the fact from her. I called her the baby until she could speak. One day, while she was crouching near the bathroom door downstairs, near the laundry room. She said her full name was Isabella Marie K-. I cut her off. I told her her name was Bella and that's that. I picked her up and rocked her back and forth like how one might for babies around 6 months or so. I'd never let her walk really. I mostly picked her up and carried her, rocked her to soothe her as well even when she wasn't cranky. Whenever she wandered too far from me I'd get an unsettling feeling inside. Then I took her back to our Vietnam vacation. The aunts and I went to a bar-club social. Uncle was bring Alex, Andi, and Bella over later. I sat at this bar and these guys all tried to get up on me. Pissed me to no end. I got up and chewed out their ass out like "What the fuck are you doing you nasty mutha fucker. Nobody wants your dick so get the hell away from me ect". Then when Bella arrived, she didn't seem to be having much fun even with the balloons and magic trick(one of the guys tried to make up by doing magic tricks) so I picked her up and took her to a water park. The kids sprayed her with water guns and I got worried that she might get sick so I picked her up as usual and rocked her even though she was 4 by then. Some boy in a blue tank said something about her shoulder blades being uneven and I just put him on full blast. I screamed at all the kids, how they're prejudice, racists pricks who will never get anywhere in life and that their shoulders were inverted? I don't even know but I was so piss. I was so mean in my dream in general yet so protective and nurturing as well heh.
Meeting Dream;
It started out normal. I was attending another night school at some community college that was over a hill. I had to walk up hill to get to it after parking my red accord. I had to pass a temple sort of thing as well. I remember swimming in a co-ed onsen. The water was clear but more yellow from the fluorescent light. As I pass the shrine on my way home, I looked at the pin board. In the left side, approximately in the middle of upper corner were two photos. They were more of photo strips but not quite. In one of the photos was his face in the background. He wasn't looking at the camera. It was more like he was just passing through, kind of just there. I took both photos even though he was in just one and shoved it into my bag. I don't know why I did. I rushed out of there. There as a feeling of fear, anxiety, anxiousness, and excitement. I'm not sure how to explain it? Butterflies maybe? Not sure why there would be. The next day going to class, I tried my best to try to avoid and pass by quickly but as I climbed up the hill I bumped into him. He had light caramel hair. He didn't look like how he does right now but more like how he did in the past. There was an angelic aura in the air, all dreamy and white. I sound like some stupid fan girl, wth? He was wearing jeans and a white, red plaid shirt. I smiled and waved hesitantly. He politely smiled back too. He walked behind me in silence and that was pretty much it. Not sure what that part of the dream meant? It's probably something to do with mom and Ami saying something silly the other day about how my eyes sparkle when he's mentioned or how my voice goes soft when I say his name. Just stupid matters that got my mind thinking silly matters. ( - _ - );
